You don't know Me - Chaesoo ✔️

Cap 27

Jisoo pov

With the end of the week also my problems of the past end. Jimin was taken in jail because I fill a complain about his abuse. So he will stay there until I hope all his life. When I have the notication I was too happy that I start to cry. Now I can live without thinking of the consequences of him in my children.

Still my idea of leaving is the same. If I stay here I will just remember and maybe one day someone new will be out of there threating me or my child. And out of there I will find a job where I don't need to dance to unknown people.
The only problem is I need to leave the people I love the most. My friends and Rosè. A part of don't want to leave her. A part of me want to tell her the truth, I know if I do it she will try to stop me and I need to do it for the best of the life of my kids.
My feelings grew stronger to the point I start loving her.
I love her... but I have never told her. I won't tell her. It will be harder leave. As I say before she deserve someone who can give her the world and I'm not that someone. I can't even buy her someone decent like a ring to propose to her. I work as a stripper. I have 2 child because I was raped by my ex boyfriend. My parents abandoned me with my grandma and she died when I was 13. My life is hard. All I do has reason I don't have a privilege to do something just because I want. All I do I planned it before. It's how it world for me, and my plan is to leave.

Today is another day of work. I'm so happy. Ironic. I just need money to support my family.
I don't know why I keep don't telling it Rosè. I think I'm ashemed to admit it.

As always I get ready and the girls where there with me helping with the make up.

"so girls how is going with your girls?" I ask

"oh we surely are fine" Sana says smirking and I don't want to ask why.

"we sometimes fight but yes all is fine" - Joy

"sometimes she went around without telling me nothing to where she is going and it is so frustrating!" explain Jennie

"yeah also Irene. I don't know why she can't tell me where she is going. " - Seulgi

"sometimes even Dahyun but she always go out to bring me food"  Momo says with loving eyes.

But the comment of Seulgi and Jennie bother me. Is that how Rosie feels about me? Why doesn't she tell me how she feel about it?

"what's wrong Chi? Why are you frowning?" - Chaeyoung

"nothing just some though about tonight. You know the dance"

"oh okay if you say so. Btw what is Rosè saying about your work? is she okay with it? "

"i actually never try to talk to her about it. I always dodge it, but I think if she has problem with it she would tell me"

"you know I think Rosè is holding herself."

"why so?"

"because you know... you work as..."

"I work as a stripper and so? I'm someone who need to be alone?!"

"no no it's just that maybe she is jealous...."

"Jisoo on stage!!" Nayeon screams and I get ready to the stage.

Before going out Chaeyoung apologized to me and of course I accept her apologize with a hug.

When the light turn off I go to the stage. In the moment the light turn on I have a deja vu. The world seems in slow mode. Only me and her are there. I'm dancing and she is watching. Different is her look on me, with an hint of disappointment. I try my best to dance with all the energy in my body but it was hard with her gaze on me. I end the strip with the knowledge I've done a lot of mistakes during it.

I return in the backstage and I know she was following me.

"jisoo wait"

"I need to change one second" I say in hurry

"I will wait outside" she says before I close the door. What is she doing here? I ask myself.

While in the fitting room Jeongyeon come again and what she says break me " Jimin suicide"
I was shocked. After all he was part of major part of my life, but no tears was there for him. Not after all he have done it.

In hurry I dress up and went out where I found her waiting.

"hey"

"hey, jisoo I think we need to talk"

"oh okay, I'm listening"

"why didn't you tell me where were you?"

"what's the use? You already know it"

"the problem is that I have to follow you because you won't say a thing about you! You always lie to me!!"

"I lie? When?"

"you lied saying you were at home while the truth is you were here doing some useless dance!!"

"useless dance?! It's my job!"

"and why can't you tell me about it?! Why have it to be like a secret?!"

"because I don't know! I don't want to let you know!!"

"you won't let me in! Can't you trust me even a little!?"

"I trust you Rosie"

"No it's not fucking true! If so you would have told me about you going to your shitty job!!"

"I'm make a live with this shitty job!! But you can't understand because you have all!! You just need to blink your eyes!!"

"I may have all materials but I lack something!! I fucking lack trust from you and it's hurting me know in the only one to put trust in this relationship!!

" it's not true! "

" yes it is! "

" no it's not. "

" you know what if it's not show me. Show me one time you let me in your private life!" nothing came to my mind and I was there with mouth shut.

"see! There's no one time!!" she hits me lightly the chest while crying "why can't you trust me?! WHY?!" she hits me again and again. I didn't answer her because no words came up my mind "why Jisoo?!" she hit me harder and this time was painful.

"you know what let's stop it. If you can't trust me we can't work" she says crying "let's------- break up" she end it.

No no no. I want to stop her but I can't. Why? Why? I look at her one last time when my heart starts to ache, I know where this is going. My head starts to spin. I need my medicine. I touch my pocket but they are not there. Where did I put them? Fuck. I start to feel the world moving and all went black.