Time Flies When You Are Having Fun...(D.Gray-man x Reader)

Chapter 18 - Overwhelmed

Lenalee shrugged at my prior question.

"I don't really feel all that great about them. Road turned me into a doll and Tyki killed a General. But at the same time, The Order could do just as bad to their own people and the Noah. I'm still very conflicted, but I hope that the Noah and Order will be at peace for the world's sake. And as Allen said, I'm very happy with this atmosphere, if this was how all of our interactions with the Noah went, I would have wanted them as friends." Lenalee gives me a knowing smile. I see hints of sorrow and pain swimming in her eyes. I place my hand on her upper back to ease her discomfort.

"I understand the hesitation, I felt the same way for a while. And come to find I had a Noah residing in my body really made things even harder. If Chronea can be convinced to spare and even love humanity, I believe all the Noah can with a little time and patience." I move my hand to my side and give her the biggest smile I could muster. "Let's try to enjoy this peace while we can and maybe have some fun with it!" I grab her hand as Allen does the same with her other and we walk towards the main group. Kanda and Lavi were bickering like housewives while Krory and Chaoji were chatting about what they wanted to do after getting off of the Ark. With these boring chats, I start to space out from the yelling and chatting.

Hopefully, we can have some fun with these challenges! I remember you loved these types of activities as a kid. Yeah... I was a pretty active kid; I never wanted to sit around for too long. You had your moments of leisure as well. Like what? Your sugar-induced coma's. ... What? I'm not lying, you would be bouncing off of the wall one minute and then passed out on the floor the next minute; you were like a bipolar monkey hopped up on cocaine. I wasn't that bad... Every kid goes through that hyper age at some point! I wouldn't know you were the only kid I really watched grow up... Hmm... Chronea, can the Noah have children? I know it's an odd question, but I was curious, did you want to have a child at some point? I got to watch you and that was enough for me. It would be nice to have a daughter but I am pretty sure the Noah genes prevents the human vessel from having a child due to the stress it inflicts. It's quite interesting to think about, would the Noah gene pass on to your offspring? I believe the Noah gene is a mutation that awakens, I don't know how an offspring would fall into the mix. Will I never be able to have a child? ...It is a possibility. I don't know how to feel. I was so focused on my career back at home I never gave this much thought. Do I want a child? As the thoughts flooded in I felt my legs give out and I dropped to the ground. Tears blurred my vision as I stared mindlessly at the ground. My body feels so cold and numb. ____? ____!?! Chronea called but there was no point. I felt someone shaking me softly but I couldn't stop thinking. The endless thoughts and hopes I subconsciously had are controlling every ounce of my strength.

"I can't... I can't... I can't...please stop...I want..." I incoherently mumbled as my arms hugged myself and my fingers dug into my skin, dots of blood appeared around my fingertips. I lost my family. I lost my friends, my job, my home. I can't even build my own family here. I can't... I want a family. I want to love someone and have a child I cherish. I want to be human... I want a family... I can't have a normal life... A loud clap resonated through the room as I felt the emotions lift. I look up to see the exorcists tackle someone to the ground as I start to feel my body going back to normal. What the fuck was that? Oh, thank god you are back! I'm so sorry, my emotions were too strong! I'm so sorry! Are you alright?! I'm fine Chronea, I'm feeling better now. Was that all you? We are beginning to merge... Our emotions were merging... We need to stop this! I can't let your emotions jade mine! I don't know what to do, you are my first vessel. You should retain your personality and only get my memories, I have no idea what this is. Well, we need to find someone that can help us. How did we get out? I heard the slap but I don't feel hurt anywhere. I stand up and start whipping my tears from my cheeks. Lenalee who, from the looks of it, rushed to my side when I fell helped me up off of the ground with a guiding hand.

"Guy's stop fighting she is fine now!" Lenalee shouts over to the dogpile of people a couple of feet away. Allen is the first to acknowledge Lenalee's notice and runs over to us. Lenalee takes out a handkerchief and begins to wipe the self-inflicted wounds on my arms.

"____, what happened?!" Allen grabs my shoulders and shakes me gently. Lenalee smacks one of his hands to stop him and starts to scold him.

"Go easy on her she just got up!" She puts a comforting hand on my shoulder as I sigh.

"I'm sorry...," I quietly mumble. " I don't know what came over me. I was talking with Chronea inside my head and our emotions got tied together and I just..." Broke... Allen's concerned face fills my vision and tries to give me a small smile. The dogpile in front of us begins to deform as we find in the middle of the fight Tyki, holding Lavi by his collar, ready to punch the lights out of him. I guess Lavi did something to me? "Tyki hold on a second. Lavi, what did you do to me?"