Selena
As every raindrop hit my skin, a tear falls with it. As the sky makes a thunderous sound, my heart would break all over again with it. As the wind blows heavily, I feel even more pain in my entire body and soul.
I was walking in the middle of nowhere, under the heavy rain on a deserted road. My shoes held in one hand and phone held in the other. I don't know where I was going, my legs were just moving as tears rolled down my cheeks every now and then. My mind and thoughts were completely not in England, they were nowhere near me at that point, it was just me and me alone.
I tried numerous times to tell myself that I'm fine and that I'm not affected or whatever, but then I came to realize that I was just trying to force myself to think that. I didn't want to believe the fact that Trent betrayed me because it was just so unbelievable. How could he do that to me? I gave him everything he wanted. I try to be as hot and as sexy as I possibly can be, sometimes I even tend to overdo it. I've learnt how to make a few dishes. I've improved on my makeup. I've learnt a lot of football skills. I've done everything in my power to be the best girlfriend he could've ever wanted, but for some reason, he went behind my back and hooked up with his ex.
I'm not even gonna hide it, I love Trent. I love him to bits that I can risk losing my life for him without a second thought. Despite everything, I still do love him. Just for once, I want my heart to hate him, I want to feel hatred towards him, real, genuine hatred. I wanted to get away from him and free myself from that mess. He had three chances, three fucking changes, but he always ends up breaking my heart into a million tiny pieces every time.
I'm Done! With Trent and everything related to him! I just can't take it anymore!
The man I thought would go to war with the entire world for me ended up letting me down. Sometimes When I think about it, it just makes me laugh. I mean, just a month ago, we were talking to each other about starting our own family, not with a baby though, with a dog or a cat. We even picked some cute names and stuff, but unknown to me, I was probably helping him pick names for his baby. I just can't believe I insulted and fought with my best friend when all she did was try to tell me the truth. I literally sent her away.
Speaking of best friend, I found myself standing in front of Alex and Perrie's duplex. I don't even remember when or how the hell I got there, it was like I was being controlled or something. Anyways, I pressed the doorbell a couple of times and waited for some minutes before the door was pulled open, revealing the usual, bubbly Perrie with a smile on her face, but when she saw that it was me at the door, that beautiful smile was soon replaced by a frown. A cold, vampy frown that represented nothing but her anger and disappointment towards me.
"Pez, I-"
She cut me off.
"What are you doing here?" I've never seen her that cold.
"Can I please come inside?" I pleaded, trying not to cry.
"No!"
"Please! It's raining heavily out here and I might just catch a cold"
She stared at me for a couple of seconds before she finally agreed.
"Fine! Come in" she moved to the side a little bit, letting me inside the house. She immediately headed upstairs to her bedroom and later returned with a grey colored duvet in her hands, the same duvet which she wrapped around me as she took a sit next to me on the couch.
That heart of gold can never ever be changed. No matter what.
"Thank you!"
She ignored my appreciation.
