Selena
I used to think living in the woods was hard, but turns out trying to focus while your brain is lagging was even harder.
I finally made time to visit Perrie in the city and get away from the outskirts of Liverpool for once in almost two months, we planned to have little chit chats, eat pop tarts and probably give each other a manicure, but my mind was just not in the right place, I was way too lost in my cave of thoughts and it only seemed like I was pushing myself further into it.
"Sel!" Perrie called, which made me snap out of my thoughts.
"Huh?" I quickly replied.
"I feel like I've been talking to myself for the last 5 minutes"
I sighed.
"I'm sorry, it's just that I'm a bit caught up with something"
"What's wrong?"
"Trent"
"What about Trent?" She Asked.
Ever since yesterday at his house when I went to get my stuff, my brain became messed up. I was just thinking about why he looked the way he did. Why was he sad? Why did he look hurt? Why did he look....helpless? He loves hilde, he's married to her and they're having a baby very soon, he's supposed to look like Tyler Perry, not Diego costa! I know what I just said doesn't make any sense but just make it a point; he's supposed to be happy, he's supposed to be smiling like it's his job, but instead he looks like he's about to burst into tears in the next second.
"He asked me to meet him tonight at noon at ainsdale" I Said "he wants to talk to me"
It took a couple of seconds for her to sink it all in. Just like I did when he told me.
"What?"
"Yeah"
"And what did you say?" She Asked.
"He didn't wait for me to answer, he just left the room after he asked" I replied "and you know, the whole thing sent thoughts into my head; he didn't look happy yesterday, like at all! He looked so fucking depressed that i thought he'd break down in front of me. His mind just....it's nowhere near him, he's lost" I added.
"Yeah, I noticed it too! Even Hildegarde isn't happy, something's bothering her and I tried to figure it out but she insisted that she was just hormonal" Perrie said "but for all I know, they could've had an argument or something" she added, to which I agreed and mumbled a small 'Yeah'
"But do you think I should go and meet him?" I Asked.
"Don't ask me. Ask your heart, it knows the answer"
Whoa!
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
After hours of contemplation, I finally made up my mind, I don't know if I might regret it later or not and I didn't care. There I was, walking on the soft and somewhat wet sands of the beach in my pajamas at midnight looking for Trent. I eventually found him sitting in front of the seashore, looking at the stars while the water touched his feet every now and then. He was so lost in the moment that I had an argument with myself about talking or not, but I didn't want to stand there forever because he didn't look like he'd snap out of it anytime soon.
