Heartbreak Girl (Ashton Irwin Fanfic)

Chapter 20: Everything I Didn't Say

Ashton's P.O.V.

"Were you scared?" Aoife's strained voice suddenly spoke up.

We were currently cuddled up in her bed; where we'd spent the entire night and most of today. The first thing I did when I got her home was head straight for the kitchen and cooked up a meal. She managed to eat all of it - before throwing up the majority a couple of hours later. I'd offered to make her breakfast this morning but she refused; pulling me back under the covers with her. We were lying facing each other - my arms wrapped around her and our legs tangled. She needed to feel loved, and I was more than happy to oblige.

"What do you mean?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"When you told me how you really felt... Were you scared?" She asked again, her voice a little stronger this time.

I laughed quietly. "I was terrified."

She tilted her head slightly. "Really?" I nodded.

"It's difficult to wrap my own head around it, let alone trying to explain it to anyone else. It started off as a small crush, but then I started to notice the little things about you. Like the way your eyes light up whenever you smile. Or the way you blush at the slightest compliment. And that cute thing you do with your nose when you're laughing really hard."

I placed my hand on her cheek and stroked it gently. She was already turning red at my words.

"When I started to see those things... I think that's the moment I fell in love with you." I finished, picking up a strand of her hair and twirling it in my fingers.

She smiled shyly before looking me in the eyes. "I'm sorry for how I reacted, Ash."

I shook my head. "Don't be. You were surprised, that's all, and I don't blame you."

"I should have been more understanding..."

"Hey, listen to me. Don't say things like that. The past is the past and we can't change it, but everything happens for a reason. If things went differently the other night, Matt wouldn't be in jail right now. He'd still be lurking around, trying to find ways of making you suffer. He's gone now, and you're free from him. Everything's how it should be."

By the time my little speech had come to an end; tears were filling both of our eyes. I've always been a strong believer in fate - and I know that despite our young age and forever-changing universe - I will never look at another girl and see the beauty that is lying right in front of me.

I opened my mouth to speak again, but decided against it and instead sighed quietly.

Aoife's P.O.V.

"What?" I noticed his hesitation.

"Nothing, I just... I really wish you could see what I do." He smiled sadly.

It wasn't a secret that I was extremely insecure. I was never overweight; yet my bullies called me fat. I was a virgin; and still they spread rumours about how I was a slut who had a new boyfriend every week. They called me ugly; so I started to believe them. The first time Ashton said I was beautiful, I thought he was lying to me. I never knew it was possible to loathe yourself so much. But then he confessed his own inner-struggles; and I saw that 'beautiful' isn't a physical feature. It's something deep inside your heart that radiates onto your face whenever you smile. It's visible in a kind gesture, in a compliment, in a good deed. Every one of us is capable of being beautiful, and that's what Ashton taught me. He taught me to see the beauty in myself.

I smiled down at our intertwined hands; his fingers were playing unconsciously with the silver band that had been wrapped around my pinky for five years.

"I don't need to, Ashton." I whispered, looking back up into his hazel pools. "I love you enough to trust that what you see is something good."

"Babe..." He pulled me closer to him, so that our chests were now touching. "You have no idea how much of an understatement 'good' is."

We both giggled, and I could feel the rhythmic pounding of his heart speed up a notch. Mine must have done the same, because suddenly his eyes turned a darker shade of brown. We both leaned in at the same time and the moment our lips connected; everything around us stood still. The world stopped spinning, the room disappeared, society came to a halt. It was just me and Ashton.

The kiss was different to any of our others. It was slow and needy; with a rush of urgency thrown in. Without saying a word, he rolled us over so that he was on top. His lips moved along my jaw, down my neck, slowly finding their way beneath my ear before whispering,

"Can I show you how much I love you?"

His face came back up to mine as he searched for any sign of hesitation. I wanted to answer him but I was afraid my voice would fail me, so I just about managed a nod. The smile on his face warmed my heart and assured me that I was ready for this. I always wanted to wait for the right person, and I knew that Ash was the one.

He reconnected our lips in a quick yet loving kiss, before continuing to whisper sweet nothing's in my ear whilst we discarded our clothing.

Tonight was the beginning of a new chapter.

A new memory was being made for each of us; and I planned on enjoying every second of it.

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A/N: Soooo... that just happened?! I didn't write anymore but I think we all know what happens next haha :)

I just have a lot of Ash feels today so this is really soppy and I'm sorry lol!

Thanks for reading xx