Confusions Of Love

Chapter 1 "Getting our feet wet"

The story begins with me and oscar walking throughout the Suffolk campus. We were heading towards sagiktos so we can go to the library make copies on something that we had to do. I stared lovingly in his eyes as he made his copies and as he wrote his essay. He caught me staring. I looked away and blushed. He just chuckled. And said " you like what you see?" I said why of course ozzybear ❤️ Then he laughed and pulled me into his arms scruffed my short hair and then he kissed me. Pecked me right on the lips. I blushed. Luckily it was barely anyone in the library to really stop us and kick us out. Then oscar phone vibrated signaling that his next class was about to start. Then he looked at me and said you know what that vibrating means. I said yeah what time you off ? Basically an hour and 30 min how about you. I said I'm off until like 4. He said said "sheesh that's mad long what you going to do in that time.
Maybe just walk around campus some more or I'll just hang around the sport center and maybe walk the track it is nice out today. Then he said oh alright
Then we reached his class. He told me he'll see me later then he hugged me and gave me another kiss and he red.
So I made way to the sports center and I was bored out of my mind and it's only been 20 minutes 😔 it's not like I'm not lost without oscar everything just seemed to slow Down. He texted me saying he was bored. In fear he was going to leave me again i kept the convo going even though I know I shouldn't cause he's in class. I had to stumble across the track field then *BLAM!* I crash to the floor with my books and phone on the floor. A guy had nearly ran me over running at the speed of usaisn Bolt. The sun was out so I couldn't see the guy or recognize him until he talk and he said "oh my god! I'm so sorry let me help you pick up your stuff." It was Michael from my human communications class. He picked my stuff up and me up. I said it's ok thanks a lot so much. I'm sorry I should've been more careful. He looked so cute but tired. Then he laughed and said yeah you should and said hey you're that guy from my communications class you're craig right?. I said yes and you are Michael. And he said that's right and then he asked me what was I doing right now. I said I'm off just traveling the campus. Then he said ah cool cool. Then I said I don't want to interrupt you're running and began to walk to away. Then he kinda said "wait,? Don't go. I'm off for a few hours we should do something...(began to blush) ....well get to know each other.... Or something like that. ( he had a experession of unaccomplished) I chuckled and said sure I'll wait for you. And then he said I'm going to change out of these sweaty clothes. So he went to change. So like 20 minutes of waiting for him to change I walked into the locker room I walked into him putting of his shirt. I blushed and he blushed.i turned my head quickly and march out of the locker room and just sunk In that I just saw his chiseled body and abs. He walked out the locker room. And I said "about the locker roo-" he cut me off and said "skip it" and he said so where we off to? I said how about captree ? He nodded his head. And we started to walk his hair looked so perfect blowing in the wind. Then he turned to me and started to laugh. I looked at him and "what? Is it something on me like a bug" he said no, I'm just remembering when I knocked you down and I picked you up." I stales face him and "that's not funny at all you're horrible. He said "I know it's not funny I just laughing at the fact of how light you are." I began to laugh and said "yeah that's very misleading isn't it?" We made our way to captree the time was 12:15.

Me and Michael entered the cafe. We sat near the window close the door. Then Michael Said to me " Craig, I feel bad what happened earlier so how about I'll buy you anything from the cafe. Anything you want." I said " Michael you really feel bad about this don't you?" Then he said in a whiny voice " cause you flew like a piece of paper 😩" then I shook my head up and down and yeah I have a small scratch on my cheek. Then his head just tilted to the floor. Then he grabbed my hand and brought me to the market and said "anything go ahead." Then I said " well if you insist then I laughed and poked him in his stomach and said " you choose, it is your money." Then he said but if I wouldn't have hur- I interrupted and "Michael.." Then he blushed and he just ordered. While he was ordering I heard the chefs along with cash register saying "they're are so cute , and adorable couple." Which made us both blush. We sat back down and we started talking and stuff and I didn't even noticed that oscar was out of class I got no text or anything from him. So I tried messaging him. He didn't respond but he read my message. I began to get heated. Michael just said " don't worry about it he's probably doing something." I just nodded my head. Staring at my phone pissed. Then Michael started to *sigh* he looked bored. I said "what's a matter? He said "this place is getting old lets head somewhere else." I look up and said "how about the lounge." Then Michael said I'm down. So he got up and stood in front of me. And he hugged me and lifted me up. I began to blush and I got on his back. So he piggy backed me to the lounge, we also got many stares from other students and teachers. I didn't care it just felt right to be with him. When we got there michael mouth dropped. And he just stared at me. He pulled me by the arm and just said " do we really have to hang out in there? They're all geeks. I responded saying "so? Michael... * I wrapped my arms around him and look lovingly into his eyes* he began to blush. Then he said "ok but there is only couch chair thingy." Then I said "if you don't mind I can sit on you lap. He blushed again. Then he responded "um ok I don't mind." So we walk in and sit on the couch and I'm sitting on his lap. Michael looked bored out of his mind but I knew he staying silent cause he didn't want to get me upset. I felt bad so I said "Michael? Do you want to go back to the sport center?" He said he's fine being here as long you're comfortable." Im not comfortable though if I see you're not having fun or being well..you know just you." He looked at me and said "what you mean just being me?" I said " you know just being you, you're no where near this quiet in class when we're able to speak especially when you speak to me. " he shook his head and said " yeah that's true then he said come on let's go." So we're walking back to the sports center. "I'm glad we started talking more beyond the classroom." I blushed and smiled and said "me too" the wind started blowing really fierce and it started to get a it cold. I started to shake a little. Michael noticed and took off his track hoodie and he wrapped around my shoulders. I began to blush again. I said "Michael I'm fine." He said "no you're not I see you shivering." He started to laugh. Then he said "stop..." He stopped us in front of hesc. I look at him and "Michael why are we stopping ?" Cause I want to talk to you he said. "Then I said " we could've talked while we were walking. Then he laughed again and said "I know but I'm tired of walking." *in my mind* for a person that does track certainly gets tired quick T_T" then Michael grabbed my hand. I blushed and he blushed. Then Michael started to speak. " well craig we've been speaking for around a month now as friends and I was kinda hoping that we can take a bit further. I was wondering can I be your boyfriend." I was mesmerized by his eyes shining so clear through his glasses and hair blowing through the wind. I was speechless. "Um... Ah.. Michael.. I wouldn't know what to say I'm speechless." *in my mind* I've developed a crush on him when me and oscar broken up. But me and you Oscar are currently messing." Then Michael smiled and said "good..." Then he pressed his soft lips against mine. He kissed me for at least 7 seconds and I love every second of it ❤️❤️❤️❤️😩👌
When he pulled away from me. He had look of wanting to kiss me again. And truth is I wanted to do again. Then I said "michael can we do that again." He smiled again and he gently grab my chin and we kissed again but this time it was bit of a make out. And he bit my lip 🙌❤️ and he said that " that felt great but in all seriousness can I be your man?" I response by saying " Michael... You have a boyfriend now. Michael jumped up amd said "thanks craig i wont this mess this up i promise😽. So whats your number so i can text you after class, you know so we can hang out tongiht. So i gave him my number. He held my hand, he was really warm and he was blushing. So we have an whole hour until we both have to go to class i said to him. He responded "yeah thats right. I dont want to go though." i asked him why? Then he said "i'd rather be here with you even though its starting go get a brisky out here. I said awww thats cute. Then he gave me a kiss on the cheek then smiled. Then my phone started vibratibg. It was oscar he was calling me. I began to get nausea. I picked up my phone.
*phone call between me and oscar*
Hello oscar
babe can i talk to you ?
i dont know can you ?
what the hell is thst suppose to mean ?
Ive been texting you all day and you been leaving me on read. You know i hate that
im sorry i did that i didnt mean to. But we i much more of a big problem.
Oscar...? Whats a matter
my fincial aid bounced
bounced ?
Im not registared in none of my classes cause it claimed i didnt pay for mg classes.
oh my god oscar where are you?
Im home with my parents trying to figured this out with them. Thats the reason why i have been leaving you on read.
Hmmm i see ill got to tell you somethibg but in person.
Alright maybe tomorrow saturday
ok ill text you maybe later bye
bye craig.
*Phone call concluded*
Michael said " you okay? you look sick and upset."
i stayed silent staring at my phone tears began to form in my eyes. Then michael said "youre crying. ... What happened craig baby please i want to help." then i began to cry. Then michael pulled me into arms. His chest was so warm. Then he said in a real calm voice "please tell me craig i want to help." Then I just said "I'm awful...." Then Michael said " you're not awful why would say that ?" I said "cause that guy I just got off the phone with was a guy I was currently messing with and he's my ex boyfriend. But now I'm made a commitment to you I'm going to forever protect." Then Michael turned away from me and said "I'm guessing you don't want to be in a relationship with me." Then I said "no it's not like that I want to be with you." It began to get cloudy outside. Then Michael said "then prove it to me." Then I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. When i pulled away from him, he calmly said to me " it's going to be ok, just tell him when you're ready too ok. That kiss by the way showed me you really have feelings for me." The sky roared and it began to pour. Me and Michael ran into hesc my phone vibrated it was a storm report. And classes got cancelled. Michael said "damn..taking the bus is risky damn I got to wait til the weather blows." Then this elderly guy said " good luck buddy this weather is planning to be like this for at least few hours." Then my phone vibrated it was Sibrina calling. "Michael my sis said you can home with me." That sounds great Michael said.
So George showed up and picked us up.
So we're in my room now. The time is 10:45 pm (yes he's staying over). Michael is fast asleep. He looked so adorable sleep and wrapped in his cover. Then he said " I see you staring." I jumped and said "Michael.. You're up ?" He responded saying yeah... I'm kinda cold." Then I said maybe I can help. Then I got in bed with him. He pulled me in closer to him then kissed my forehead. He was so warm. I almost instantly fell asleep on his chest like a kitten. The best night of sleep ever. The morning swung around I woke up in his arms held tight around me. I looked at him and gently shrugged my way upwards without waking him and gave him kiss. His eyes instantly opened he looked scared at first. "Morning to you he said " I chuckled and said "morning cutie" then I asked "your parents aren't mad you stayed over are they." No there actually relived that's you were there to take me in cause my dad had the car and my mom is kinda sick right now." It's Saturday what you want to do ? The carnival is open Michael said. I said sounds like a plan that sounds great. Then he said so its final were off to the carnival later then he put his arm around me. *then CartexzCat spring out my thoughts* (note the only people are able to see Cartexzcat is a friend that knew me for years and family and boyfriends and girlfriends that dated me for at least three months *yes that means Oscar can see CartexzCat and understand him* or until I tell him or her. And CartexzCat is basically a conscience and inner self now back to story cause CartexzCat is going to come up a lot) and Michael put his arm around me I blushed. I sniffed I died and CartexzCat fell out of my mind and said to me "craig throw out a sub about sweat or something" I blushed and blank twice like a cartoon character.
Then Sibrina said to Michael "I bet you feel a bit sweaty from your jog yesterday and I bet you want to shower and freshen up." Then Michael said "ah yes please that would be excellent." Then he headed to the bathroom then Sibrina said you're welcome. Then I asked "wait a minute how'd you know ?" Then she said I know what you're thinking and plus you think aloud without thinking aloud you know what I mean?" Then I said yeah kinda." She then said "craig I see your cat inner self conscious thing." Then I said oh okay then thanks." While Michael was in the shower. I got dressed in my black jeans. White button up, my white and black cat hat and black scarf an finally my jeremy Scott's. Michael got out the shower and ricky let him barrow some of his clothes. He was wearing a graphic American flag shirt. Over that was a a simple red hoodie with white drawstrings with skulls on the tips, jet black jeans that fit a bit skinny. With his red and black Jordan's. Finalizing with a red beanie and his blue headphones drooped around his neck. So we heading to the bus stop to the carnival. Sibrina gave me 60$ for the carnival and to go to any resteraunt to eat at. ( the family went out with Michael's parents ) ironically they ran into them. While me and Michael were waiting for the bus. Michael said " you look like the most adorable kitten in the world right now." I blushed and said "aww really thanks Michael as I hugged him." Then he smiled and said "no problem anytime babe.. Well kitten." Then our bus arrived. Michael grabbed my hand, we sat down. Then Michael held my hand and I leaned my head on his chest. He kissed me on my head. His cologne smelled perfect. He's sooooo warm then CartexzCat said *big improvement on the smell too. Awes he's just like cat nip to me. Meow ❤️❤️❤️❤️🙌* he looked down at me and I look at his beautiful chocolate eyes. Then I close my eyes and smile. Then he actually pulled me into his arms and I fell asleep into his arms. For like 30 minutes then Michael woke me up cause we have arrived at the carnival. We walked off the bus I got light headed and I grabbed to michaels hand tight. He said "OUCH!! Craig why are grabbing so tight?" I said "come let me whisper something in your ear" he leaned in on me. "I'm scared of clowns." He laughed and said "why ? There suppose to nice and happy" then I grabbed his shirt "NO!! Mikey there full of evil. Please can we not go next to it please." Then he said "but crai-" I interpreted him "Mikey !" Then he said alright fine fine. So we walked
Away from the clown and headed towards the rides. We went on the Ferris wheel first. He held my hand the whole ride and the song we were listening to was Justin beiber catching feelings.❤️ Michael gently grabbed and kissed me on the lips. When the ride was over we went to the photo booth we took pictures. Then he noticed I kept staring at my picture of me and Oscar when we went to the movies and our photo slot in my wallet it was me and his first date. Then Michael said " you still haven't talked to him about him dating." I said " it's hard to Michael" then he said "you promised..you'll do it today." We were both silent then he broke the silence "know what ? When you tell him that's when we talk again" then he stormed off. I said "but Michael please don't go." But he kept on walking. Then CartexzCat said *damn kid sucks to suck what you should we I mean you do?* i just walked around the carnival staring at my phone hoping a text or call from Oscar or Michael to come. But nothing and CartexzCat wasn't going to let me text Michael we cats especially Leo's are extremely prideful. It was nighttime around 7 It was time to go on the bus to Friday's to eat dinner. I was to scared to call home to say me and Michael got into a fight for them to pick me up quickly. It was just me and my stuff cat and Michael got a stuffed dog from the game we won. When I got on the bus it was only a few people on the bus. I sat down and started to cry into the stuff cat it smells just like Michael. CartexzCat said *comeon craig please stop crying please.my power is weakening as you're emotion goes down* then the bus stop and a few more people joined. I'm crying still and then I feel hand on my shoulder it felt heavy. It was this older man he looked around in his 40s and his breathe reeked of alcohol. He asked "hey kid, what's a matter you look really upset why are you crying. I said "it's a long story just boyfriend issues." Then he put on a evil grin and said "you don't say" then he roughly grabs my hand and says "come with me I can make you feel better." I struggled but his grip was too tight. Then the guy pulled the stop requested wire. I started to shout "STOP IT! LET ME GO!" No more made an effort to move not even the bus driver everyone just stared and had there phones out filming on headphones In. The bus doors opened. Tears began form in my eyes. In my mind I'm thinking "why isn't me CartexzCat feral instinct kicking In. I'm about to get raped and worst get killed by this this drunk." Then I heard a voice say "Let Go of him.... Now" turned my head so did the old man. It was Michael. The old man said "Fuck off kid he's with me theirs no problem here." Then the old man spat on the floor. Then Michael got pissed and grabbed the guy by the shirt which released me and yell "get the fuck off my boyfriend before I called the police on you. Then Michael pulled the guy closer to him and the guy was looking like he was about start shitting bricks. Then Michael said or worse I'll kick your ass myself scumbag. Now which it's going to be." Then the old man said "oh whatever kid... He wasn't even all that cute anyways." Then the old man proceeded off the bus. Then Michael pushed the man off the bus and the old man just laid on the floor. Everyone is still watching the bus is not in motion. Me and Michael just stared at each other. I was so shell shocked and scared I just started to cry and said "Michael....." Then Michael walked up to me and picked up cat that dropped in the struggle and handed it to me and said "you dropped this kitten." I grabbed the kitten from him and started to cry again. Michael just pulled me into his arms and I cried In his chest. I started say between cries and breathes "Michael...thank you so much. You saved me life."
Then Michael said "Im just glad I got on the bus to still risk going to resteraunt instead going back home. This probably one the best descions I've ever made. "
And then I hugged him a bit tighter and started to cry a bit harder and said " ooooh Michael I thought you were mad and didn't want to see me again like- like care for me anymore cause you know." Still In his arms he loosened my grip from him a bit and grabbed my chin to make me look at him and in a gentle voice "craig... Please stop crying." And brushed a tear off my cheek. Then he continued "Craig just because I was mad doesn't mean I don't care." Then Michael leaned in and kissed me. It felt so life bringing. I stop crying and CartexzCat was visible again but he looked really weak and beat up badly. Then I put my face back in his chest and said "Mikey I'm sorry please don't let me go." Then Michael hugged me tighter and said "I'll never let you go or walk away from you and I forgive baby just don't say it." Then we sat down in the chairs again. He sat close to me and mean eyed anyone that looked at me. Then CartexzCat said *ouch what happened I feel like I got knock out by your overthinking negative thoughts. And yaaaay meow everything is better between you two.* then Michael looked at me and said "you okay? Do you still want to go to Friday's it's only 8:30."
I said "yes.. To both things" then I smiled. He smiled and said "great cause I'm type starving." Our stop came and we got off and proceeded to the resteraunt. We sat down the resteraunt was kinda empty for a Friday night so we got sat at a area of our choice. So we sat near the back near a window for Friday's it felt pretty romantic. After dinner we didn't leave we just sat down and just talked.
*conversation start*
I started to play with my straw and look at the floor
Michael asked me
"What's wrong ? Your still shook from earlier on the bus?"
I said "yeah...like I could've died if you wasn't there. I'm usually not weak like that."

He said "babe don't talk about it only thing that matters is that it's over now. "

"But what if you weren't there for me."

"Then I'll have a giant guilt cloud hanging above my head cause I was the one that walked away from you,"

"Michael listen I'm sorry I didn't tell him. It's just really hard telling someone that you been dating for almost a year."

"I understand I've been thinking about that all night and I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt cause it'll be hard for me too. I think the three of us should just sit down and talk this over."

Sounds like a plan you're going home tonight?

Nah maybe in the the morning or afternoon.
Alright sounds like a plan, then CartexzCat yelled swinging his arms up and down
*dumbass bad idea alert bad idea alert meow why the hell did you agree to that!!!!!!!*
We left the resteraunt

When we got to my house I was exaushted I nearly fell asleep on Michael on the bus when he was talking to me. It was around 11:30. His parents were at my house 😪😪😪 they wanted to meet me and wanted to pick Michael stuff up and give him stuff for the night. Cartexz said * they come to pick his stuff up as oppose to him. It's not like I don't mind having him over but today and this weekend to stressful* his parents didn't leave until 1am they were interviewing like I was going for a job or I was celebrity for e magazine. We're now in my room
"Sorry about my parents for the two hour interview it's just like they do that for all of my new friends I happen to tell them I meet. Trust me it'll be worst if I told them me and you were together."

I said " when do you plan on telling them. My parents already know we're messing around they think we had sex last night."

Michael laughed and said " sex? That's a bit too soon. And I'll tell them as soon I feel like we're together."

My earth shattered and I shot a deadly look at him. CartexzCat "damn..... Shots fired to the max. Ask him what's that mean."

Then I asked him "what the hell is that suppose mean ?" You don't feel like we're together."

I mean what I say and I don't feel like we're together because you're still hugging feelings for your ex even you claim you're over him.

But what happen to giving me that benefit of the doubt crap huh? I don't know where this side of you came from but I'm going to tell you I don't like it.

And I don't like the fact you accepted me going out request and you still messing around with you're ex.

Wait... Stop I'm the one who's wrong here Michael.... Michael I don't like the fact we're arguing this early in the relationship were only three days in.

He sat next me on my bed and put his arm around me then he said to me in a gentle voice "then let's not fight anymore lets just squash this right now." then he gave me a gentle kiss on the cheek.
Then i just turned my head from him. Then I said "even though you're kinda right but what you just said to me It hurt so bad" then he said I know but is it anything I can do that can make you feel better?" Michael .... Just don't talk and just kiss me right now and don't stop. Then he came over to me and turned my head and he bit his bottom lip. Then he pressed his against mine then I felt his tongue down my throat. It felt so great. Then he got on top of me. And started taking off my shirt and his. He started grinding on me. As this is happening I'm seeing the highlights of me and Oscar relationship but I couldn't fight michael's love and affection. It was too strong and it felt great. Then he started taking off more of our clothes so we're both naked. He continued to kiss me and then he proceeded to have his way with me and I enjoyed every second of it. Then we were finished. Michael fell asleep it was 3:30am