The diver boy - going for gold ♥ (OLD)

Chapter 28

Chapter 28

I entered the centre and went straight to the changing rooms. I got changed into my gym kit and headed to the trampolines with my ipod. I couldn’t deal with seeing or speaking to anyone right now this was one of them moments when music was the best cure. No one was here yet not even Kat, so I thought I would let all my emotions out on the trampolines. I plugged my headphones into my ears and turned it up full blast. I began to jump as high as could and began to do some flips and diving work. Each time my feet hit the trampoline it was as if I could feel my heart beating and Tom’s sad face kept popping up into my head. I didn’t notice I was crying until I saw Tonia standing in front of me with a worried look on her face. After the Olympics she had moved from Southampton to Plymouth due to training and her family was down here. I pulled my headphones from my ears and collapsed into her arms crying. “What’s the matter Kido?” she asked and we both sat down on the trampoline. “Tonia I’m so confused right now” I cried “Tell me everything” she smiled weakly. I just told her everything about mine and Tom’s secret relationship and about Kat and Andy and how I broke up with him” “Aww sweetie come here” she said and held out her arms for me and she pulled me into a tight friendly hug. “Does anyone else know?” she asked I shook my head “Only you and Stace”. I wiped my eyes and blinked away my tears. “Please don’t tell anyone” “I promise, but everyone is going to notice Tom being upset and you probably won’t be talking so people are going to know something is up” “I didn’t mean to hurt him I still love him and I will never stop its just it’s better for both of us this way” I sighed “With both of you unhappy?” she questioned “No… but it just will be” I sighed. “I can try and talk to him if you want” she smiled I nodded “Thanks Tonia you’re the best, anyway I best go find Kat” I wiped the last of my tears and stood up and went to go and find her.

I found her waiting in reception. She turned around when she saw me and smiled. “Have a nice holiday?” she asked as if nothing had happened and everything was normal. I shrugged “Just thought I let you know I told Tom we shouldn’t be… together anymore” I said and looked down at the floor because I could feel my eyes tearing up again. “May I didn’t mean to be harsh, you know I would never do anything to hurt you, you did the right thing” she said and put her hand on my shoulder. I shrugged her off“I told him this morning so I don’t know how training is going to be” I said sharply she nodded “Kat he meant the world to me so I just want you know maybe both of us unhappy will affect our diving much more than if we were together” “Well… come on I have made up a new training program for the gym for you” she said and we headed towards the gym.

When we arrived I placed my kit bag in a locker and saw Chris and Katie already training in the pool, Tonia and Jack were on the running machine and she smiled weakly at me when she saw me, but then carried on running. The only person who was missing was Tom, if he even showed up, to be honest I wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t “Ok right kido 100 sit ups on the mat” she said “Yes mam” I saluted sarcastically “Ok you can stop with the sarcasm now May” she said I rolled my eyes and walked to the mat and began my sit ups. After me apparently being too slow and Kat adding on another 100 sit ups. I grabbed my water bottle and gulped it down. The first day back at training is always the worst your muscles always ache and you feel like you are literally going to die. “Ok right now I want 75 pull ups” she demanded “What come on Kat is the first day back and normally I only do 50” I whined “Don’t you want to be at Rio 2016?” she asked. I groaned in response and headed over to the pull up ladder. As I did my first pull up my muscles felt like they were screaming at me to stop but I had to carry on I couldn’t deal with a stroppy Kat today.  

Once I was about half way through I my muscles felt numb by now I heard the gym door slam open. Without even looking I knew who it was. I tried to carry on with my pull ups and not look in his direction because I knew I would either start crying or feel even worse. I heard Andy talking to him as he put his stuff into a locker. I felt his eyes on me and when I couldn’t resist I looked at him. His eyes looked a little red; he gave me a sad look, until Andy took his attention off me and onto him. I watched him as he headed over to the mats and began doing press ups.

The rest of training was very hard and intense. After I had been in the gym for 2 hours we did some pool work, it was nice to be back in the water though. I never realise how much I miss diving until I spend time away from it then go back to it. It was so awkward and I think everyone could see the awkwardness between me and Tom, but every time he tried to come and talk to me Andy would either steer him away or Kat would pull me in the other direction. In a way it was a good thing so I didn’t have to hear is voice which I knew would start me off, but I guess I didn’t really get to hear what he wanted to say this morning, but then again maybe it was easier that way.     

After training I went straight back home I didn’t even talk to many people. Jack had asked me whether I wanted to go into town and get lunch but I gave an excuse and said I had to help my dad, I wasn’t in the mood to go out and pretend everything was ok because it wasn’t.

My hand received several messages from Tom

‘Please can we talk bbe  xox’

‘call me? We need to talk xxxx’

‘I still love you and always will ♥’

The last one was the one that hit me the hardest. My dad had also noticed my behaviour but I just used the excuses such as ‘I’m on my period’ ‘Sad the Olympics are over’ the usual but I knew he didn’t believe me. One I got home I went straight up to my room I wrapped my Olympic duvet around me and cried into my pillow I had no idea what to do or how to feel is this normal?