How Can You Be So Trusting?

Chapter 12 - The Letter

Janus's P.O.V

I put the letter in front of my face to read the letter left for me. I'm prepared for what ever he's going to say to me.

'Dear Janus,

I apologise for leaving so sudden. We didn't even get a chance to know each other better unfortunately. I'm sure you are a wonderful person. Well at least Patton says you are, he talks about you a lot so you must be.

But first let me explain why I did what I did. Just to  ask from a dead man. Tell no one. You must be sworen to secrecy. It'd hurt the others too much.

Thank you.

I was having quite a few difficulties with self estime which led to a number of more problems regarding mental health. I did not tell the others because I didn't want to worry them and I couldn't admit it. I wouldn't what to see what they thought so I ran away from it all like a coward.

Another thing was family. Remus is harsh and hurts me any chance he gets, I still wonder why he most likely hates me. I but said nothing about it to my parents. Now my parents, they are lovable and wonderful but they aren't mine and Remus'. Our parents got killed in front of our eyes when  we were 7 years old and we've never been the same since. Remus because violent and I put on a facade. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm just there slowing dying with each breath.

Along with that, recently, I found that we had another sibling. Yes, we have another sibling. Me, Remus and her are triplets apparently. We don't know her name. We don't know where she is and why she was sent away from us. All we know is that she exists. Well I know. Remus will find out about it but I've been hiding it from him ever since. I don't want him to feel guilty. He thinks of the oddest reasons for thing and this won't be any better. I was protecting him.

And then Logan. Logan was my best friend. We've known each other since I was 7. We were both in the police station when we met. Me and Remus were taken in for statements about our parents death. Whereas, Logan we have no idea why he was taken in which made me suspious about it. When I was 10 I found out. Logan never had his father in the picture at least I thought that until I decided to snoop around his house one time. I found out that when we were 7, he was writting a statement about his father. Apparently he had been abusive to him and alchol and drugs I hated knowing about it. I hated knowing about the pain he had been though. His father had been taken into prison for 9 years. This year he had been released from prison.

Then comes Logan's suicide attempt. I know exactly why he did it, he told me. One day, I visited him in the hospital and he told me. The day he had come back from prison she was as worse as ever. He was cruel to him and blamed him for everything and if anything went wrong he'd get a beating. Quickly, he became sick of it all and attempted suicide. Which us what he meant by he's sick of it all. Why he never told anyone is because he didn't want it to get worse.

I'm sorry for what I've done. You've been a wonderful friend to me through the little time we've known one another. Please help the others through it and they help you if you need it. I know you'll still be the great person that I knew and that you'll get past this and come back stronger!

Signing off for the last time,
                                                  Roman♡'

I saw my tears splash onto the paper covering the tears that were orginally there. Most likely Roman's tears.

I've got to be strong. For him. For the others and for myself.

I'll join the others now with their weeping and mouring. I can't tell them anything, I made a promise to a dead man and I'll respect it.

I opened up the door from the office and saw the others waiting outside for me as I ran over to hug Patton. I miss him. Even if I didn't know him well. He was so strong.

I was weeping into his shoulders quietly as he patted my head softly as he shushed me.

Remus came over to me and looked at the state I was in. I was a mess. My hair was wet and everywhere and my eyes were puffy and red matching my cheeks.

"So he told you?" He asked as I nodded in response, "I'm gonna find my sister, she needs to know,even if she doesn't care,"

Everyones faces turned to sympathetic confused faces at Remus.

"Who?" Virgil asked back at him.

"Me and Roman have a sister, we were actually triplets," He told them all, "And he never told anyone," Remus began shedding tears as he shoved his letter back into his pocket.

"He told me about his mental health problems to me," Virgil added in. Did he tell them all little parts of it all? Then told me everything else because it would be easier? Each one of them have specific subject that he told them. One's that he knew they'd understand, "Well just his anxieties about everything and his anxiety,"

"Oh, he told me about his depression," Patton discontinued with patting my head and just wrapped his arms around me. They'll mange to stick things together.

"He was burnt out as well," Remy continued with the announcements o things I already knew.

I wonder what he told Logan. Was it about Logan's family things? Did he tell him I knew? I hope he's alright.

I got out of Patton's hug and grabbed my phone out of my pocket. I need to talk to him.

Private Chat With Logan

Janus - Logan, if you need it, you can stay over at my house whenever you would like.

Logan - Thank you. Also, I am aware he told you about it.

Janus - Alright.

Logan - Enjoy the rest of your day Dee.

End Of Chapter. 1062 Words.