CPR

42

Aaliyah- A month later
Brooklyn, New York
"Alright let's take a fifteen and meet back here in our same spots." Jay said to the models.

We were in New York right now and he was shooting for a magazine and he got me the job styling these models. It's been so much fun so far and I was thankful that he chose me for this opportunity.

Since our date we've gotten a lot closer and we weren't officially a thing but we also weren't just associates anymore. At first I was a little bit standoffish and hesitant to start anything with him beyond us being friends. After a few dates and some quality time spent together I've grown to really like him and I guess you could say I've developed feelings for him.

Apart of me felt like I might be moving a little quick but we hadn't done much yet. By this time in Carti and I'd relationship we had sex and all that. Not that I'm comparing Jay to Carti but I know the feelings I feel with Jay are real. I can say I'm completely over Carti with no hesitation and Jay isn't a rebound. If I would've felt for one second that this might be that I would've stopped.

"You doing your thing out there." He said walking up behind me.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me on the cheek. I smiled and felt butterflies creep up in my stomach.

"Me? This isn't nothing but I can't wait to see what you've shot so far." I turned around.

"Yeah I shouldn't be too much longer we're almost done. Whatchu wanna do after this I'm free all day?" He smiled.

"I'm really hungry so let's get some food but I wanna walk around New York too. Last time I was here I didn't really get to enjoy it how I wanted."

"What happened last time?" He asked as we both sat down.

"I fought Carti's ex and it was really just a bad trip all together. Too much was going on even before I got to New York." I rolled my eyes.

"Damn well you ain't gotta worry about none of that while we here." He grabbed my hand.

"Good I'd hate to relive it all over again." I laughed caressing his chin.

He licked his lips and I leaned in closer to his face kissing him. This is the first time we've ever really kissed besides kissing on the cheek and stuff. He respected me and my space and what I was working on getting over.

He knew I didn't want to move too fast but kissing him felt right. I could tell he wasn't expecting it and neither was I, but his lips were sweet and super soft. As our lips moved together I could feel passion and emotion between us and it was something very new.

"Damn.." He pulled away wiping his lip.

"Let me help." I laughed as I wiped my lipgloss off of him.

"Y'all are so cute this makes me miss my boyfriend." One of the models said walking by.

We both laughed and got up going back to set to start working again.

"Think about what kind of food you want and after this we can go." He smiled.

He went back to his camera and I started fixing and adjusting the models outfits. They all went back to their positions and everybody went right back to work.

I stepped back and brought out my phone checking what I've missed. I still wasn't on social media and it felt good taking a break from it.

I felt like things were getting back to normal and not only with my emotions but with myself. I've been doing a lot of work to get myself back to where I was before Ian had to go away. I started spiraling and lost control but having good people around helped me with that.
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Carti
I was sitting in the studio with Rocky while we worked on a song for his album. It felt good to work on something different besides my own shit for once and it inspired me a lot.