|POEMS| The untold words...

Unrequitted Love

I'm in love with someone who doesn't love me back. And honestly, it's one of the worst feelings in the world.

Do you know how many times I tried to get over him? Too many to count.

Every morning I would tell myself,"today you'll look at him and feel nothing."

But it never happened.

No matter how hard I tried,my heart still reacted like it always did.

And it's exhausting.

Seeing him every day, knowing he'll never be mine. Lying awake at night wondering if maybe, just maybe, I ever cross his mind too.Watching him smile and feeling something inside me break all over again.

It hurts in such a quiet waythat nobody really notices it happening.

Maybe by now you already understand why I'm saying all of this.

The person I'm in love with is you.

And I'm sorry I never had the courage to tell you before.I don't think I could have survived hearing rejection directly from your lips.

But I think what hurts the mostis realizing that something which meant everything to mewas never even close to meaning the same to you.

So this is my goodbye.

Not only to you,
but to the version of myself
that kept hoping
you would someday love me back.

And maybe this letter
will never reach you.

But I needed somewhere
to place the feelings
that haunted me
every time our eyes met.

I truly hope
you find someone who loves you deeply.

Because no one deserves
to know what it feels like
to love alone.

Goodbye.

N/A
This is a letter I'll never send to the person I like. But felt like I needed to share it.

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Raw version

I'm in love with someone who doesn't love me. And let me tell you, it's the worst fucking feeling in the world. Do you have any idea how many time I tried to get over him? Countless
I woke up every single day telling myself, "today you'll look at him and won't feel anything" but it never happened.
It sucks, it really does. I really hope you never have to go through this, seeing that person ever day, knowing that they'll never be yours, lying wide awake at night, wondering if maybe, just maybe, they're thinking about you, seeing them smile and feel you heart shatter a little more every time. It breaks you.
You might be wondering why am I telling you all of this. Well you probably already figured it out. The "someone" I'm in love with is you.
I'm sorry I never had the courage to say this to your face, I wouldn't have been able to withstand rejection from your lips.
Now that I let it all out, I guess I'm just sad. Because I really liked you; more than I've liked anyone in my life. But luckily for my dignity (cuz I didn't do anything stupid), I got slapped in the face with the reality that we weren't meant to be, and that it never was a big deal to you, for you never truly cared about me.
With this letter I'm trying to say goodbye to you, and to those feelings that haunted me ever time our eyes met. I wish the best for you and I hope you are able find someone to love, who loves you back so you never have to go through what I did.
Goodbye.