a/n ~ hii <3 i've had a break as i've just had so many things on my plate at the moment. but i'll be updating regularly again:)
Jungkook couldn't bring himself to talk to any of the members. He felt like such a burden.
So he closed his eyes.
Jungkook was sat on a bench, for the first time in a while feeling at home, as if he belonged. He looked across from him and saw a man sitting under a cherry blossom tree, reading. Although he couldn't see his face, Jungkook could tell how beautiful this man was. Just looking at him made him feel at peace.
And then he was back, in the hospital. Having to deal with everyone being wary of him, everyone being sad because of him.
Since he'd caused all of this.
It was his fault Jimin's eyes were red from crying.
It was his fault Taehyung couldn't look at him properly without his eyes filling with tears.
It was his fault that Yoongi sat in silent shock.
It was his fault that the usual bubbly, joyful Hoseok was stressed and worried.
It was his fault that Jin hadn't eaten all day.
It was his fault that Namjoon felt like as his leader, friend and most importantly brother, he'd failed him.
Because Namjoon hadn't failed him. He had failed Namjoon. He'd failed everyone. But Jungkook hadn't realised how much he would affect everyone. He thought they'd secretly hated him.
But in a way, causing them all this much pain, was worse than the members hating Jungkook.
Because at least, then they'd be happy.
Jungkook was good at ruining people's happiness.
especially his own
He lay in bed, and he was at a complete loss of words. He didn't know what to say to the members. He wanted to say he regretted trying to kill himself.
But he didn't regret it.
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I'm Fine | Depressed Jungkook x BTS
Fanfiction"I'm fine" He said quietly. "No Kookie, you're not." TW: This story will contain self harm, suicidal thoughts, mentions of eating disorders, anxiety, depression etc etc. There will be graphic parts.
