Jin and Namjoon had decided to go find Jungkook and try to get him to eat something.
Well, Jin was going to go on his own but Namjoon insisted he'd go too.
"Don't think I haven't noticed the way you look at Kook" Jin teased lightly as Namjoon turned bright red.
"If it helps, I think he loves you too." Jin said
"How did you"-
But Jin shushed him, they were outside Jungkook's room.
They walked into his room but he wasn't there. "That's weird, i was with him around an hour ago, and it didn't seem like he wanted to leave his bed." Namjoon said.
They were about to go and look for him when Jin spotted a few pieces of paper on Jungkook's bed, maybe he went out without telling them and left that there so they wouldn't be worried.
"Wait, Namjoon there's something on his bed."
They walked up to it and Jin read the first page, there was only one sentence.
i want all of you to read this together - jungkookie~
So, Jin and Namjoon, both very confused, walked back to the others.
"Did you find him?" A concerned Hoseok asked?
"No but we found this, he wants us to read it together?" Jin said, still extremely confused.
"I'll read it out." Namjoon offered, and Jin handed the pages to him.
None of the members were expecting what was written on those pages.
hi hyungs~
i have some messages for you all, so please read through this, and remember i love you.
to jin hyung,
thank you for raising me since i was 15, cooking for me and being my hyung. i know i can get a little frustrated when you get all concerned about me, like a real mother but i love you for it, i really do. so thank you hyung.
to yoongi hyung,
i think we're both maybe more alike than it seems. thank you for being there for me, being a brother to me. i love you, even when you're angry at me, though we both know that never lasts long heheh, finally thank you for helping jin hyung raise me.
to hobi hyung,
thank you for being my sunshine. you brightened so many of my dark days without even realising it, i'll always be grateful. thank you for supporting me and believing in me when i didn't even believe in myself. i love your happiness, and please stay happy, don't let me spoil that for you. i love you.
to jimin hyung,
thank you for your hugs, for comforting me if i had a nightmare, for (mostly) understanding me. your hugs are my favourite things, you're one of my best friends, my brother, i love you.
to tae hyung,
thank you for playing games with me, hanging out with me, and being a true brother to me. some of the most fun i've ever had has been with you. i hope you continue to play games with jimin hyung or hobi hyung.
to namjoon hyung,
without you i wouldn't be here. i don't think i'd have lasted this long if i hadn't been a part of BTS. and it's thanks to you i became a member. i've always been thankful for it. i love you, joon. and not as a brother, not the same as the other hyungs, and i decided to tell you now, instead of never saying it. i know you didn't feel the same and i don't mind, who would? but thank you, thank you for everything.
to my hyungs,
i love you all. so much. you'll probably be upset, but not as upset as you'd eventually be if i stayed. i can't stay. i've had enough of this cruel world. i don't want to be here any longer. i'm sorry for being weak, i'm sorry for being a burden on you all, i'm sorry for constantly disappointing you.
but you can forget about me now, you can rip up this letter if you want, burn it, and move on. forget i ever existed, replace me. have fun, enjoy your time together.
don't remember me, that will just cause pain, and i've already caused myself and everyone else a lot of pain.
goodbye hyungs, i'll miss you.
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I'm Fine | Depressed Jungkook x BTS
Fiksi Penggemar"I'm fine" He said quietly. "No Kookie, you're not." TW: This story will contain self harm, suicidal thoughts, mentions of eating disorders, anxiety, depression etc etc. There will be graphic parts.
