Namjoon was right.
Jungkook wasn't fine, he was far from it. He could feel tears begin to form in his eyes again, and for what felt like the hundredth time that day, he blinked them back.
He just wanted to die.
then die you freak.
you could do it today.
there's no point staying around.
you're going to die anyway.
might as well be now.
"Kook?" Namjoon was looking at him worriedly.
you see?
you're causing people to worry.
if you don't hurry up and die soon, it'll just get worse.
"Kook!"
think about it for a second, if they find out you're planning to kill yourself, you'll make them worry 24/7 about trying to stop you and get you help.
if they find out you're self harming, you'll make them worry all the time about helping you stop, and making sure you don't carry on.
do you really want to burden them with all that.
at least when you're gone, it's only one thing they have to worry about.
and trust me, you're nothing special. who cares if you die?
you will just make everything worse for everyone, including yourself if you stay.
because some people are beyond help.
sometimes it's a waste of time to help them.
they're not worth the time.
there's no point in them being alive.
and you're one of those people.
"JUNGKOOK!" Namjoon shouted.
Jungkook jumped and looked up at Namjoon. The look on Jungkook's face, that look.. it scared Namjoon.
It was a look of pure pain, Jungkook looked broken.
But, only for a second, as he managed to mask it.
"Jungkookie.. you know we're here for you right? If you want to tell us something."
"Because I can't shake this feeling that something is very wrong."
"And I know I'm probably being paranoid. You're probably telling the truth when you say you're tired. Or a bit stressed. But I can't help but get scared."
"None of us can, because we love you."
no they don't.
He gave Namjoon a fake smile, which seemed convincing enough. Namjoon pulled Jungkook onto his lap and wrapped his arms around him.
And for a split second, Jungkook felt safe, happy even.
But most importantly, genuinely loved.
The members all loved him.
And he wished he could stay in Namjoon's arms forever.
Instead, he knew what he'd be doing, very soon.
He knew the things he needed to do to achieve that.
The first thing was to make a note.
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I'm Fine | Depressed Jungkook x BTS
Fanfiction"I'm fine" He said quietly. "No Kookie, you're not." TW: This story will contain self harm, suicidal thoughts, mentions of eating disorders, anxiety, depression etc etc. There will be graphic parts.
