jungkook was all alone. sat in the darkness somewhere. he didn't recognise the place.
the man who'd been haunting his dreams was gone.
his hyungs weren't there.
he was all alone.
but being all alone, didn't seem too bad. he wasn't scared of disappointing anyone.
still, it would be better to have his hyungs with him, even if this was only a dream.
despite this, he felt at peace.
jungkook wished it could be like this all the time. peaceful. no worries.
but, jungkook knew he'd never be at peace.
at least, not while he was still alive.
...
When Jungkook woke up, he could see Taehyung and Jimin still sleeping at the end of his bed.
It must be early though.
Jungkook checked the time on his phone. It was 5am.
He didn't want to go back to sleep though. He had around two hours to himself before the members started to wake up. He was going to make the most of it.
So Jungkook crept to the bathroom and found his blade. He made sure to lock the door and then sat down on the edge of the bathtub.
He just stared at the blade in his hands for a few minutes, with tears in his eyes. If the members found out they'd be upset.
just cut yourself you worthless freak.
The voice always found a way to hurt him, when he was at his weakest point.
And Jungkook would do what the voice told him to do. He didn't have the energy to fight back.
And he agreed.
With everything the voice told him.
All the names he was called.
So, he cut.
And he didn't stop to think that he hadn't waited to do it on his thighs, he'd done it on his arms without thinking.
But it didn't matter, he wouldn't be here for much longer.
here's your chance.
everyone is asleep.
just do it now you coward.
No.
No, he wouldn't do it now.
He wanted to at least write a note to his hyungs, to explain properly why he couldn't stay with them.
But..
He knew he'd be doing it soon.
He wouldn't be staying in this cruel world for long.
Because, why stay in a world that didn't want him?
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I'm Fine | Depressed Jungkook x BTS
Fanfic"I'm fine" He said quietly. "No Kookie, you're not." TW: This story will contain self harm, suicidal thoughts, mentions of eating disorders, anxiety, depression etc etc. There will be graphic parts.
