Track 07

Chapter Thirty-Seven

The hot water feels like an epiphany. There is nothing better in the world. Washing away the thoughts of last night, all the confusion you've been through in the last 24 hours. The thoughts of Jimin so close to you and also Jungkook so close to you. How did you end up like this? Well one thing is for sure. You can't keep this up. You can't juggle with the boy's feelings. But on the other side, it's not like anything really happened so far. You didn't even kiss one of them.

You just teased them more or less. Or they teased you. The problem is, that you have absolutely no clue how the guys feel. With Jimin it could've just been dancing. That's what's dancing all about right? The passion, the emotions. It doesn't mean that he likes you in that way. Besides, he had more than enough possibilities to kiss you, but he didn't. No. You're sure. Jimin doesn't like you like that.

And Jungkook? With Jungkook it's not as challenging. He cuddled with you last night and 10 minutes ago he practically begged you to go shower with him. But what if he's only playing around with you? He's Taehyungs little brother after all, and Tae is the playboy of the century.

How will you know if Jungkook is trustworthy and not only here to play. Maybe you could ask Hoseok. He's known him for quite some time. But you don't know Hoseok at all. Wouldn't it be weird asking him stuff like that?

You turn the shower off and wrap yourself in the towel Jungkook gave you. You exit the bathroom, only to find Jungkook sitting in his underwear on his bed, looking at you. You flush instantly. Why does he look at you that way? "You done?" He stands up. You nod, still uncomfortable with this whole situation. He comes closer and stops 20 centimeters away from you. "You look cute, when your hair is wet. But then again, you always look cute." He strokes your cheek slightly before going out of the room.

"So, you like ocean eyes?" Hoseok is sitting on his bed. He's pale, but he looks more alive than yesterday. "What?" You're confused. "You sang under the shower about ocean eyes. Too bad my eyes are brown. Your voice is as lovely as the most beautiful spring day. I can see why Jungkook likes you." Hoseoks smile is warming your heart. You have the feeling that you would trust this guy with your life, if need be.

"Did I? I'm sorry, Hoseok. Sometimes I don't even notice when I'm singing. Did I wake you up?" Hoseok shakes his head: "Please, don't call me Hoseok. Call me Hobi." What a cute nickname. It fits. You don't know how, but this man who was nearly stabbed to death yesterday seems like pure life today.

"How come you're this happy? You nearly died yesterday." "But I didn't. That's exactly why I should cherish every single second today, right? Going through life, being grumpy or anxious just isn't me. I've been through so much shit, and I always manage to smile again afterwards." "I don't know how he does it!" Jungkook interrupts him. "He would have many reasons to be in the baddest mood almost every single day. His life is shit. He doesn't have any money, his home is tiny, there are always people chasing him, wanting him dead, but still, he doesn't care. He's as happy as one can be." Jungkook laughs. He's only wearing a towel around his waist, his long hair still wet from the shower.

"Stop it. I have the best friend in the world. How can I not be happy?" Hobi smiles at his friend and Jungkook just shakes his head: "We should eat something. I'll make us breakfast. You don't move." He points at Hobi, who was about to get up. "I'll be right back." Jungkook turns around and leaves.

"So, what are your intentions with my little bunny?" Hobi suddenly seems intimidating. "What? My intentions? What are his intentions? He's so scary sometimes." Hobi laughs: "Jungkook is the sweetest person on earth. I'll swear to god, if you have any intentions on hurting him..." He looks really scary now. "I don't! I don't even know, if he likes me like that. I don't even know if I like him like that." "Oh boy. Have you seen the way he looks at you? Of course he likes you, dummy. But if you don't have any intentions with him, tell him soon. I really don't want him to get hurt."

Well, that went well. How can you tell Jungkook what you want, when you don't even know it. At least now you can be sure, that he likes you. But you don't want to hurt Jungkook, because you don't want Hobi to beat you up (that's what he looked like) and also because you really like him. And there is also this guy named Park Jimin.

Fuck, How did you get here?