Track 07

Chapter Fifty-One

"Have you met someone, who turned your life around, like 180 degrees? I always thought I knew how life was going. I thought I always knew who I am, what I want. But in reality I never thought about that at all. I never thought about who I am, or who I want to be. I never thought about what life has to offer, if I just look at it a different way. Namjoon, you have to know, I hated everything in my life. I hated my job. I hated the music there. I had no people in my life that made me laugh or feel good. But I never did anything to change that. It was just how my life was, and I thought I would die this way. But then I heard a melody. That made me feel different. It was the first thing in a long time that excited me. I couldn't get it out of my head. So I looked for it everywhere. I went through a list of over 400 songs, just to find this particular melody. When I found it, it sparked something in me. It made me sing again. It made singing fun again. And then suddenly, the composer of this song stood before me. Told me he wants to make music with me. Suddenly I had a purpose in life. I had a task I was passionate about. But that's not the only thing Jimin did for me. He took away my hatred. He gave me laughter and brought soft light into my life. Whenever I was with him, everything felt light. It felt like the sun was constantly shining. His smile makes my heart flutter and I never want to be away from him. He slowly, but steadily shifted my life from darkness into the light. Because of him I don't hate everything in my life anymore. Now I know that life can be good, if I just try to make it. If I just try to be the best version of me. He told me, that he always tries to be the best version of himself. Someone who makes others happy and thus is happy himself. I never thought about who I want to be. I was just like I was. I never thought there could be a better version of myself. I thought there is only this one version. But there isn't. Do you understand Namjoon? I can't be the best person in this world. I can't always make everybody happy, but if I just try to be a little bit better every single day, I might come close to someone who actually is a great person. I want to be someone, people like being around. Someone who brings laughter and joy, just like Jimin does. I want to be like Jimin. I want to be the best version of myself. That's what he taught me. He made me into a completly different person. He changed my life that much. He changed me, just like that." You snap your fingers and smile.

Namjoon is speechless. You have never seen him speechless, he always has words for everything. "Namjoon, I need to tell you something. I'm going to tell you, because I want to be the best version of myself. I've been bad at that lately, I know. But it's never too late to begin being better. Joon, my sister is in love with you and if you're not totally stupid, you give her a chance. I think you guys would be great together and I see the way you look at each other. Maybe, just maybe, you are destined to be with her, if she makes you happy. Everytime I mention her name you smile like crazy. If you like her, please tell her. But promise me, that nothing will change between you and me. Promise me that you will always be my best friend, no matter what happens with you and Lynn, okay?"

Now Namjoon is even more speechless. After nearly one minute of not saying anything, he gets up, comes closer to you. He takes your hands in his and smiles at you: "Lynn loves me?" His eyes now make up half of his face. You nod. "Are you sure?" You nod again. "Y/N, you know that I am absolutely head over heels for Lynn? She is the perfect woman. I have never felt like this. I could spend every single second with her by my side. And if she likes me as well, that means, I might get to kiss her, I might get to tell her how I feel." Namjoon radiates a kind of happiness you have never seen. "Keep on being the best version of yourself, because you just made me a very happy man. Y/N, the way you feel about Jimin, is out of this world. I have never heard a person talk about someone like that. If these are your true feeling, we have to do everything possible, to get this mess fixed. I'll do everything. And you know there is only one song on the CD left. We'll make the most amazing track on this planet, but only after I talked to your sister. Do you know where she is?" "No idea, just call her." You smile. Namjoons happiness fills the whole room, and his words about you and Jimin give you hope.
Maybe you can still fix this. If you really show Jimin how you feel. Maybe he will forgive you.

"Oh and one last thing." Namjoon says before dialing. "Nothing will change between us. I will love you the same way I do now, forever and always. And not even your sister is going to change that. In any case, it's even going to be better between us, our relationship will be even closer. I will make sure of that." He smiles at you warm heartedly.

You're sure, being the best version of yourself was the best decision you ever made.