Track 07

Chapter Forty

How does he...? You're surprised and you must look like it, because Jimin just starts laughing: "Come on! It's so obvious that there is something going on. The way they were yesterday. They came into the studio all giggly and smiling at each other. To be honest I have never seen Namjoon like this". "Like what?" "This happy." Jimins voice sounds soft."But Namjoon seems like he's always happy." You don't understand what Jimin means.

"He does. But that's only because he's really good at hiding his pain. He doesn't want others to feel pain because of him. That's why he usually suffers by himself, just to be strong for his friends. But with Lynn he seems so different."

You're still confused:"Different how?" Jimin sits down on the floor, once again you notice that there are no chairs nor a bed around. "He has never looked at a girl the way he does at her. With sparkles in his eyes. I have the feeling that he would be truly honest with your sister. I think he really cares for her." Jimin can't stop smiling at the thought of Namjoon being this happy. "You mean, the same way I care about her. Like a sibling. He feels like she's his sister?" You try everything to deny the obvious.
"No. Come on y/n! Don't you see it? He loves her. Not like a brother, more like a lover." Jimin snickers at his lame rhyme.

You shake your head: "No. That's a lie. He's not in love with her!" Jimin now seems a little bit angry. "What's going on? Why don't you want Namjoon and Lynn to be in love? Do you have a thing for him?" You laugh at this accusation. "Ha!That would be it! Like it's not complicated..." You stop mid sentence. Jimin raises one eyebrow: "What is not complicated?" You laugh nervously:"Haha nothing. But no I don't have a thing for Namjoon. I like him a lot but more like a big brother, best friend type of guy."
Jimin takes off the pullover he was wearing while asking you with a muffled voice: "Then what is your problem with him being in love with your sister?" You don't want to talk with Jimin about this. You don't want him to think badly about you. But his eyes give you so much comfort. It's like they're saying 'No matter what, everything's gonna be alright. I'm here for you, don't worry'. How can you not tell him?

"I don't want things to change. I like my relationship with Namjoon just the way it is now. I don't want him to forget about me, or for things to get awkward between us. Why can't they just stay friends."

You thought Jimin might laugh at your stupid reasons. But Jimin would never do that. Instead he comes closer, takes you into his arms, comforts you and whispers into your hair: "I know, change is always scary. But trust me, everything will stay the same between you and Namjoon. He would never let something like that get in the way of your friendship. He loves you just the way you love him. But don't you want him to be happy? Like really happy? I have never seen him happier than with your sister. And don't you want your sister to get over her jerk ex-boyfriend? Trust me, the best version of you would do anything for them to be happy."

The best version of myself. There it is again. How could you forget all about that, about your goal?

Jimin is reminding you that you have the power to make the lifes of two people you love very much, so much better. It's all in your hands. Why would you keep this happiness from them? "But what, if they break up and they're both heartbroken?" Your voice sounds like you're about to cry, that's why Jimin pushes you away from him softly and looks into your eyes: "Who cares about afterwards? If them being together is what makes them happy now, all the pain that might come is worth it. We only know true happiness, if we experience the sadness as well. And besides, you don't know if that'll happen. For all I know, it looks like Namjoon has found the girl of his dreams. He's not one to break up a relationship that quickly."

"How do you know?" "Namjoon-hyung had some girlfriends before. But none of them made him truly happy. Nevertheless, he always tried to make them happy. He always put them before him, and they never aknowleged that. They took him for granted, but after some time they were always the ones breaking up with him, never knowing he was much more unhappy in the relationship. But he never showed it, and never wanted to hurt these girls, that's why he always tried to do his best, tried to be happy, but never truly was. Maybe until now. Like I've said, Lynn is different from all the other girls. She kinda worships him." You laugh: "Yes, she does." "And that's exactly what Namjoon needs. Someone who knows what an amazing person he is, someone who puts him before anything else. Y/N, you should really think about your decision. Maybe Lynn is his key to happiness. Just like you..." He stops.

What. What. What? What did he want to say? "Just like me? What did you say?" Jimin flushes a bit, jumps up and rushes into the kitchen: "Nothing. You want something to drink?"