Track 07

Chapter Forty-Four

Jungkook shakes his head, which looks funny, because it still lies on the pillow. "We wanted to, tho." "We did?! What happened?" You don't understand the world right now. "Well, we were making out, which was really good by the way, and I took off your shirt and mine as well and then you just passed out." His lips form a straight line. "I'm sorry." You really have to keep yourself from bursting out. "I passed out?" "Yes, you were really drunk. In hindsight I'm not even sure I would've gone through with it. I didn't want to take advantage of you, when you're this drunk." He slowly sits up, you copy him.

"It's cool, that you finally found out about your feelings for Jimin. I would say it was the right timing." "The right timing?" You tilt your head. "I was actually about to fall in love with you, y/n." Now your lips form a straight line. You don't know what to say. You kinda provoked it with all the flirting. "You're a great girl. You're smart and funny and your voice sounds like a Disney princess." "What's wrong with all the guys and the Disney Princesses?" You ask confused. "Well they just sound amazing all the time." He smiles at you.

"Y/n, maybe I wasn't about to fall in love with you. Maybe I already am, just a bit. But if you have feelings for Jimin I respect that. I want you to be happy and it's not like I am crazy for you. Well maybe I am. But point is, if you love Jimin you should go and tell him. I can handle this, I think. I'm so happy I met you. You taught me an important lesson. For me it's hard to open up to people, you may have noticed." "Just a tiny bit." You show a two centimeter gap with you fingers.

"Well, I learned from you, that opening up maybe isn't the worst thing. You brought me so much joy, although I barely knew you. Maybe if I open up to more people, they will bring me joy as well. Thank you for teaching me this." He hugs you awkwardly, because you're both still sitting on the bed.

You taught him that? "Well, you taught me something, too. You looked kinda scary with all your tattoos and your long hair and you never spoke. So I was a bit scared of you at the beginning. But getting to know you showed me, that people are not what they seem like. You are so kind and cute and your heart shines so bright. That's why I nearly fell for you, too Jungkook. I should stop judging people based on their apperance. From now on, all the people that come into my life deserve to be treated based on their actions and not their looks. I never wanted to judge people like that, but it just happens, you know? It's so hard to change habits. But because of you I will try."

Wait. You jump up and search for your bag, you take out the small notepad and write something down.

They taught me. 

"Thank you for everything Jungkook. I'm sorry again and I hope I didn't break your heart or anything. I gotta go now. I have to talk to Jimin." You run out the door, not noticing the slight look of despair in Jungkook's eyes.

You run home. Your car is probably still at Jimin's. But you're not able drive anyways. So you just walk home. You need to talk to Jimin, but first you have to take a shower and get all your thoughts sorted out.

But one thing you already know for sure: You are in love with Jimin and he needs to know.