Track 07

Chapter Forty-Five

Your finger touches the bell and the door is being opened instantly by a very worried looking Jimin. "Y/N!" He screams, runs towards you and hugs you. You chuckle, close your eyes and breathe in. Take it all in. Jimin hugging you. The man you love so close to you, clearly being happy to see you. "I'm so sorry. I didn't want to hurt your feelings or anything." His voice sounds raspy, like he cried a lot last night. "Jimin, can I come in first?" He nods. You two sit down on his couch in his second, very beautiful room. Who has two rooms? It's bright, the walls are painted white, as is most of his furniture. He has simple, blue cushions here and there and posters from landscapes on his walls. You instantly feel at home in this room, why didn't you notice it yesterday.

"Jimin, what happened last night? I was so drunk, I don't remember a thing." "Phew!" Jimin seems truly relieved. "Well in that case, not much happened. We were drinking and at some point you just went home." He smiles. He's such a bad liar. "Jimin, you texted me. Something happened. You said you didn't want to hurt my feelings. What did you do?"

"Okay, okay. I'll tell you, but please don't be mad." "I promise." And you mean it. You still have to come clean about the Jungkook thing. Making out with him, nearly sleeping with him. Well that's gonna be fun. So whatever happened with you and him last night, you won't be mad. "Well, you were really drunk and I wasn't. How can you work at a bar and get drunk that easily?" "Don't distract me, Jimin." "Alright, so you were drunk and at some point we were sitting on the balcony and you started kissing me."

Your eyes grow wide. You did what?! "But, I didn't join you. I didn't kiss you back. I didn't want to kiss you just because you were drunk. That didn't seem right. I only kiss women, that have feelings for me and that I have feelings for. Just making out because of alcohol seems like a stupid reason and is so unromantic. So I rejected you and you were, clearly hurt by that. I'm sorry. But I guess if you don't remember, the hurt must be gone as well, right?" He smiles.

You kissed Jimin and he rejected you. He said he only kisses girls he has feelings for. Does that mean he doesn't like you in that way? Fuck what did you do? Do you still tell him you love him? Will he reject you again? You say nothing for nearly two minutes. Jimin sits next to you, waiting for you to react. He's not impatient, just silent.

"Jimin." Okay, you have to do it. You just have to tell him, he needs to know. Even if he rejects you, you did everything you could. Okay here it goes. "Park Jimin, I'm in love with you. I have been for quite some time now, but only realized it this morning. I love you." Jimin was waiting for anything, he expected anything from you. That you cry, that you scream and ask him why he would reject you like this. But this. This he did not expect.

"Y/N, are you drunk?" WHAT?! What kind of an answer is this? "No, of course not. I may have some rest alcohol in my body, but no, I am sober." Jimin smiles brightly and leans forward. He takes your chin slightly in his hand and pulls you closer to him.  "Good. Because I don't kiss drunk girls even if I'm in love with them." And then FINALLY he kisses you.

His lips feel totally different than you imagined it. They are the softest cushions you have ever felt. They fit perfectly into your lips and when he opens them just bit to touch your upper lip with his tongue, fireworks go off everywhere in your body. Your arms, your head, your tummy, everything tingles. His hand grabs your hair and pulls you even closer to him. His kisses are soft but at the same time raw and wild. He knows exactly what takes your breath away. He places kisses all over your mouth and face. This is what real love feels like. It's nothing you ever felt before. It's something that should never stop. These kisses shall last for eternity. You and him. That's all you want in life. Nothing more than his hands touching your back, caressing it softly. You want nothing more than the scent of cotton and freshly mowed lawn all over you. This is it. This truly is the most beautiful moment in life.

But what you don't know is, it will be followed by the worst moment in life.