Eula: Entry 07

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"Loving him is like
Trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright
Just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey, all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met
But loving him was red"

- Red by Taylor Swift

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Its been a few days since me and senpai got together, we talk everyday obviously but right now he is at work so i can write for a little bit.

I feel so happy knowing this man is finally mine and i feel great knowing he feels the same too. We got to video chat already and i see the happiness across his face. I feel like I'm still dreaming and i need to pinch myself but it's true! I am dating the famous Natsume and i am his waifu. But there's one thing that's bothering me though...

Despite of us being together and happy, my mom and brother knows about this relationship and they don't seem to be too happy about it. They think that Natsume is just a hoax and what if he's never a real guy because i dont know him personally nor the friends i have online. In some ways she is right but it's my decision to date him, not hers, she has no rule over our relationship honestly. We are going strong right now and I'll have to talk to him tonight about this. I want to honestly know what his side thinks of me.

Of course we all know his mom passed away so i wont even bring her up. She's like a sensitive topic that i feel like you shouldn't just bring up. I don't care if he is my boyfriend or my husband, some things are just not meant for sharing. I don't want him to be pained by the memory of his mom since it was just very recent that she passed away.  I will just bring up to him what my family's deal is because i dont know anything and i dont want to be involved in anything regarding them.

As of right now I'm thinking of my cosplay. I want you to know what you think of this one:

 I want you to know what you think of this one:

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I think it would be cute because it will be my first time cosplaying as a cat! I wont be out there to attract any unwanted attention though. If anything that will only be for senpai and some top secret things me and him only share about *winky face *

But... enough of that for now before i go too far. I have to go and help my family with something and hear about more lecturing from my mom. She thinks all i do now is talk to my sayang. She is not wrong but she needs to chill out a bit dont you think? Parents get hysterical nowadays when they hear their kid dating. I don't think it's right. But anyway, see you later.

- Eula Chan

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