Diary Of Tears

Eula: Entry 08

"Is it safe to say that i will be forever a slave to your beautiful atrociousness? I dont know it I'm obsessed or just honestly in love with you."

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I haven't been speaking to my love for days now because my family has been keeping me busy. They found out that I am trying to move with Natsu to his country so we can start our lives so they are trying their hardest to insist on keeping me here. Even my own brother is trying to lie to him.

And if you ask if i still work, i dont anymore because im trying to schedule a flight that will depart in within a month or three weeks, sayang gave me the money to purchase the flight, i just gotta take care of immigration affairs. I hope he doesn't think i am cheating on him or something but its true that i do gotta talk to him soon. Maybe when i have the time honestly...

I do not want anymore repeats of the incident where i was keeping secrets from him especially about my church; which by the way i stopped going to already because i just wanted to ease his worries. Oh! Also, i got Natsu's name tatooed on my arm!! And if you ask, yes it is permanent, i dont regret marking my body though! Its a sign of change coming.

Im just really really drained right now that i am taking care of immigration papers and my mom being on my ass everyday talking about how much of an ungrateful child i am and that she hates me. She and my brother even lied to Natsu that i have many many illnesses and that i am going to need "treatments", i only have a heart condition guys, stop trying to make up stories just to make yourselves feel better just because im almost on my way to living a normal life.

My mom is just jealous of me because i found a man who truly loves me, when she's the one who caused dad to leave her. There's just many things in this world that i do not understand anymore. It went from being so simple and clean to downright filthy and unholy. Sometimes I feel like the dark days are already upon us and further in the future we will have no more good left in us... i honestly am hoping it doesnt stay that way because i dont wanna live in a world like that.

I really have to go for now, i dont even have the luxury to write long entries anymore because of how my life is right now. I promise though, once i move with Natsu, i will write so much more positive things! Count on it!

With love,
Eula