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A special someone requested me to tell this story o...
"You light my soul on fire like it's full of life. Your smile keeps me going through every living obstacle that I encounter in my life..... Is it safe for me to say that I NEED YOU?"
I have not been keeping up with everything about me in this diary, most of the time i am just with Eula nowadays having a nice chat about almost anything. I didn't know we would be clicking with each other that quick. I am not going to lie i sort of starting to have a crush on her, but i dont think she is aware of it, i dont know what this woman thinks, she is very mysterious it somehow fascinates me... But i feel like she is hiding something from me that i still have to yet find out myself. I should probably get her to talk more about herself because most of the time its about me that i am talking about. She knows about my mom passing away and she is helping me cope along with other things like my breakup with Yrene... I did take it kind of hard when she said she did not really feel the same way about me like how i felt for her... Somehow though whenever i tell Eula i feel bitter about it or upset, it feels soothing hearing her comfort me, it makes me forget about it for a bit and just think of nothing else, like a static on a tv screen. I could clear my head without even needing to find the effort to; I feel nothing but happiness whenever i am around her lately and i love having that feeling. How i wish that feeling of just happiness would be the only thing i feel and not a bunch of sad, edgy, bitter, emo or whatever stuff kids these days call it. What's bothering me is i am an adult myself like Eula is, yet i am more edgy and emotional than everyone else in my circle of friends... But then again it's part of my nature... I cannot get rid of it unless i make the huge effort to change myself.
Also paper-sama the one i am currently writing on (its a joke) if you are asking how Yrene is doing, she is alright, we are talking like normal friends again but on my side there is still that awkwardness that lingers in the air... I told her about it and she said we don't have to keep communicating, we can just go back to being strangers if everything is going to be awkward from here on. I mean i dont know, give me time i guess? What happened was still fresh and its probably still getting to her. I'll give her some space for a while if this is the case. I dont really want to burden her the thought of us splitting up just because the feelings weren't mutual, I am not that type of person.
Oh yeah going on another topic, i am finding myself to be slowly into cosplaying, i am currently working on cosplaying as Agni from Black butler. Wish me luck on it though! It is going to be my very first cosplay and i intend to take this seriously! Here is a picture of Agni...
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He does not look that bad, I probably would have to find a good tailoring shop for this costume and search for a very good quality wig. I need cosplay advice!! Maybe Eula can help me with that... I'll check with her later to see what i can do.. For now i need to go out and start finding some stuff that will go with the Agni cosplay.
