What Am I Holding On To That I Need To Let Go?

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What Am I Holding On To That I Need To Let Go?

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What Am I Holding On To That I Need To Let Go?

What do I need to let go? Emotions, memories, or objects? Cause I probably have some of each.

Memories the most, but emotions are a close second. I don't have many physical objects that I don't need, moving once a year does that to you.

And that's probably something I need to let go, that sounded bitter, even on a screen. And I didn't even realize that was how I felt, yet I need to let it go.

I have ways of coping that work, like playing music so loud that I can't hear anyone while doing the dishes, but that doesn't mean everyone does, or even that they have a healthy coping mechanism.

It depends on the person you are, but in the end, the less you need to use your coping mechanism for, well, coping, the better.

Anyways, back to the first subject.

I have a few different emotions tied to memories that I probably need to let go of, but it's pretty hard.
One that I can remember clearly,

I usually move about once a year, but in this place we were staying in, it's been almost two, and by that I meant states, not houses. But even though I moved houses twice, I stayed at the same school, which was unheard of before then. And I really liked the school that I was staying in, most of them I hated. But there was this one girl, let's call her Lily, that I didn't get along with well, she seemed to hate me for no reason, even when I tried to be her friend.

I didn't know what to do, so I usually ignored her, but of course, it's hard to ignore someone glaring at you if your sitting at the end of a semi circle holding three crying children while the teacher reads a depressing book. (Sorry, probably some more stuff I should get rid of.) anyway, that's part of my background with her, I'll tell you the memory I need to get rid of.

So that school usually had a lot of different fairs and festivals, for both the kids and the adults, and Lily's mom usually ran the fall festival, while my mom did the auction. So one year, the auction fell on my birthday, and considering now, 5 years later, I've only had one good birthday, my mom asked to take the fall fest instead, and it was decided that Lily's mom take the auction instead.

Now, for some reason, Lily didn't like that, I have no idea why, her mom was ok with it, and from what I remember about her dad he seemed ok also, so I really don't understand why she didn't like my mom taking the fall fest, that that's what she complained about, not the auction, but the fall fest. So about a week after I learn this, maybe a month before my birthday, Lily corners me while I was getting my stuff, and quietly goes on an angry rant about my mom taking the fall fest, and something to keep in mind, lily was my first friend at that school, and everyone knew everyone's birthday, even people who join part way, we had a freakin calendar just for our birthdays, there is no way that she wouldn't know it was my birthday, she would have seen it at least the next day, no more then a week, but no, she still seemed to hold a permanent grudge against me, because my mom was trying to give me my first good birthday ever.

Sorry, I'm good now. But that's something I majorly need to let go, like, yesterday. And the funny thing is, my parents didn't even know about this until a week ago, I never told them, and no one ever caught her, or me, glaring at each other. That's six years that they never knew their daughter was bullied by her first friend in that state.

Awkward coughing.

What are memories, emotions, or physical objects, that you probably should let go of? Unless your gonna go on a 550 word rant like I did, then maybe wait a bit.

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