You can't save me, I'm damaged goods.

Dream

The floor felt like ice beneath me. I was sitting just inside the door to my apartment, with my head in my hands. I felt so empty inside, and yet, at the same time, my emotions were like a storm going through my body.

I felt happy. I think. To be honest I had never been more confused by my own feelings. Jungkook was confusing me. He was confusing me, but I liked it. Even though I knew I shouldn't. I couldn't think about him anymore. I just needed to get this day out of my head. Tv. Watching Tv had to help. Right? I don't even know who I was asking. It didn't matter. Tv. Right.

I ended watching some strange drama, but I still couldn't focus. When I tried to focus on the main character, he would always do things to throw me off track. He had a weird smile, so every time I saw it I would be reminded of Jungkook's bunny smile. The woman in the story had eyes that looked exactly like his, so every time her eyes sparkled I would hear him saying "Great!" or "See ya tomorrow". It was really quite frustrating. I think I saw 2 episodes before I finally fell asleep.

In my dream, I was whole again. I had lived so long with a feeling like somebody had punched a hole in my chest. My lungs could never fill up enough, and my heart was lost beyond reach. That's why sometimes when I was having a panic attack I would be thankful. Because then I could really feel my heart beat fast. Now, that feeling was gone. There was no hole in my chest, and even though I felt my heart, it was more controlled. More natural.

Where was I? I had no idea, but still, I couldn't bring myself to be afraid. The leaves were falling off the trees, though they were bright green, and it neither felt nor looked like autumn. I was walking through the trees, my mind and heart content, except for a small part missing something... Or someone?
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Just then, I saw him. His body was mostly hidden behind the big trunk of a tree, but I could see his face at the side. Jungkook. He was looking right at me, just like I looked at him. Normally, I would've flinched away, dropping my gaze and blushing a startling red, but now, it didn't bother me.

His hair was ruffled, like he had been sleeping for a long time. He wore a black turtleneck, emphasizing his muscular chest when he moved from the tree. Just as he took a step towards me, my feet followed his actions closing the distance between us. I wanted to reach out, to touch his hand, but I was afraid he wouldn't want me too. Even when I looked at his face, which was so sure and inviting, I couldn't bring myself to smile back at him. I looked at him as he took yet another step, and, again, I couldn't stop myself from following. We were close now. Maybe three steps apart.

We didn't talk, and yet I felt that we had a conversation. Our lips didn't move, and yet I said everything I wanted to say. We didn't make a sound, but his eyes told me everything. I didn't know it now, but I would later come to realize that this was the moment I fell in love...

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So I know this chapter was really short, but I'm gonna upload again soon.

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Btw if you want any other ships (that don't include Jm or Jk) let me now and I'll try to include them