You can't save me, I'm damaged goods.

Date?

A week had passed since the incident and I was still undecided. Should I try to reach out? Apologize? Or just pretend nothing had happened. I felt guilty, immensely so, after they came here. I was a mess and so was my house, but they still made an effort to clean up. It looked cleaner now than I could remember it ever being before.

Work would start in five days, it was Thursday now, and I was nervous. After a lot of thinking I decided that I would still go to work, and just try to figure out what to do when I saw Jin again. Hopefully seeing him could give my head some clearing. 

I had spent a lot of time with Luke in the past days. He was a good friend and could make me laugh a bit, even though it wasn't a hundred percent genuine. Actually, we had just gone out for a coffee earlier that morning, so I was surprised when the bell rang and I opened the door to reveal my neighbor.

"Luke! What's up?" I asked. He seemed nervous and kept fiddling with his fingers. "I wanted to talk to you actually," he said. "Can I come in?" "Of course," I answered and took a step back, signaling for him to come in. He nodded and went inside, going straight int the living room and sitting down on the sofa.

I sat down beside him, keeping some distance. "What is it?" I asked, encouraging him to speak. "I was wo-, I mean, I wanted to ask if you would, maybe want to come on a date, if you want to, with me tomorrow," his sentence was messy and quiet, but I understood what he was asking about. "Oh," I said. Hmm how to turn him down without being rude...

"Eh, Luke, listen, I enjoy being with you. You're a good friend, and I'd like to remain like that just friends," I said. I hadn't even considered him as a possible boyfriend. He was nice, but a little too energetic. I felt like I would feel suffocated in a relationship with him, but I couldn't just say that.

He looked awkwardly at the ground, probably regretting even coming here. I don't want to lose our friendship, though...

"I'd love to hang out with you tomorrow, though. We could just go to a bar, or get some alcohol and watch a good movie here? As friends?" I desperately hoped he would say yes. His face lit up at my suggestion. Maybe he wanted to be friends too if we couldn't be more? "I'd like that," he said, seemingly more comfortable. I smiled at him, glad that we had reached an understanding.

He said goodbye quickly after that, and I was left alone in my apartment again. The day was still young, and I wanted to do something. Something I had promised myself not to do, but I wanted to do it anyway. I grabbed my phone and started writing a message to Tae.

From Jimin:

Hey

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Tae had answered the message faster than lightning, and we decided to meet up at my house. His house was about twenty minutes from mine, but ten minutes later I heard the knock at my door. I chuckled slightly under my breath, relieved that I didn't have to worry about his arrival anymore. Even though he was my best friend, I still couldn't shake the nervous feeling away. Would he hate me for what I did?

I rushed over to the door, trying to leave those thoughts behind. Pushing down the handle, I opened the door slightly, only to get pushed in. At first, I was surprised and a bit disorientated, but  I soon understood what had happened. Tae had taken every opportunity, and as soon as I opened the door, he pushed in and jumped on me. Now, I was laying down and he sat over me, just like he always did. Had I been expecting anything else?

"Hey Tae," I said as a small smile came on my lips. "Jimin!! I'm sorry for just barging in but I couldn't control it and I've missed you so much. I was so glad when you sent me a message," He said faster than I've heard Namjoon rap. He buried his head between my neck and shoulder. Our relationship had always been touchy, but it was perfect for both of us. I wrapped my arms around him and brought him closer. Tears burned in my eyes, and I was so thankful to see him again. I hadn't realized just how much I missed him.

A sob escaped my mouth, and I covered it with my hands. My eyes were wide with shock. I wasn't prepared to have such a strong reaction to him. Tae's head shot up at the sound and he locked eyes with me. "No, don't cry please," he said. "I'll cry too," and I could see the tears in his eyes as he spoke.

"I'm not crying," I lied but you could clearly hear it in my voice. "Tae..." I began knowing I had to do this. "I'm so sorry for what happened. I was acting stupid and childish and I wish I could go back to that moment and change it but I can't. Can you forgive me? I know it must be exhausting being my friend and I know you probably don't want to, but I miss you. So much." At this point, we were both crying.

"Jimin. It's okay. I know it's hard and I wonder if you'll ever get this into that stupid head of yours," he said with a giggle, and I had to smile a bit too. "But seriously, you don't see yourself clearly. Of course, I want to continue being your friend. I was never actually planning on stopping. I've been a wreck hoping you'd call me my own girlfriend had to throw me out of the house!"

I had to laugh a that and soon we were both rolling on the floor crying, but now they weren't sad tears. After a while, we finally calmed down and we were just lying next to each other on the floor.

"Ah, I guess I shouldn't have done this but I had no choice.." he said making me confused. "Done what?" I asked him, but before I could answer the door was kicked open. I yelled out and quickly got up on my feet only to see four people stumbling through the door at the same time. It wasn't going very well since the person with the broadest shoulders was in the middle, pushing everyone away. It ended with them probably getting bruises and complaining about each other.

"Jesus christ, next time you go last"

"Worldwide handsome my eyes, how 'bout worldwide clumsy-guy"

"Hey don't blame my beautiful body for this. And that joke sucked. Clumsy-guy? Really"

...........

"Guys?" I called gently

All of them turned towards me for the first time since entering the door.

"Jimin!"

"Hey! Didn't know you were going to be here," Hobi said.

"In my house?"

"Uh, yeah"

I just shook my head and said "come in"

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I'm really sorry for not updating sooner, and to be honest, I have no excuse. The reason was because I've been very undecided on how to keep this story going. (I will explain more later). But here I am and I hope you enjoy this chapter, even though it is short