You can't save me, I'm damaged goods.

Neighbour

Two days had passed since I came home, and nothing had changed. I stayed in bed, not eating, barely drinking and only getting up when I really have to. I can't remember the last time I had been so bad. Both mentally and physically. 

The holiday was still on, and I was thankful I didn't have to go to work. I probably wouldn't have anyway. There's no use now.

I was laying in bed, listening to the song playing quietly in the background. It was the sound I had put on for the tenth time that day, but I couldn't get tired of it. Everything from the lyrics, to the melody, to even the soft beats in the background, seemed to understand a bit of what I went through. Even though my situation was nothing like what the song talked about.

My misery was put slightly on hold when the sharp sound of someone ringing on the door played through the apartment. It took a while before my mind seemed to even register the sound, but when it did I furrowed my brows in confusion. 

Who could it be? 

My mind automatically thought about Tae, Jin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Hobi, Jungkook.... but it couldn't be them. They wouldn't go here, and they were still in Spain. So if not them then who? 

At first, I wasn't even contemplating answering, but as the person kept ringing, curiosity got the best of me. I dragged my self out of the bed with a low groan and stood up for the first time in several hours. My head was immediately flooded with dizziness, making me almost fall to the ground. I managed to keep standing and started making my way towards the door. I deliberately made sure to not catch sight of myself in a mirror. That alone would have caused me to break down.

Finally, I stood in front of the door, and I twisted the door handle. Still, I hesitated another second before finally opening it. 

There was a man standing in front of me that I had never seen before. He had dark hair and deep eyes set in a well-portioned face. His legs were covered in a dark pair of jeans that fit his calves tightly, and he wore a white t-shirt. In addition, he had a light denim jacket with the sleeves rolled up, revealing a pair of toned forearms. He was handsome and looked gentle and kind. His eyes met mine quickly and he gave me a small, polite smile. His eyes seemed to have a small gleam in them as he did so, but I couldn't be sure.

"Hi," he said.

"Can I help you?" I asked, but not in a rude way.

"Actually, I'm your new neighbor. I just moved in across the hall, and I saw you two days ago. I thought I would introduce myself. My name is Luke," he said and lifted his hand to shake mine.

"Oh, well nice to meet you," I said and gave him a small, fake, smile.

"I won't take more of your time, but it was nice meeting you too, and I'm sure we will meet more in the future," he said with a wink. 

I nodded, smiled slightly and closed the door.

Huh. He's cute.

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I was at home watching a new series when I suddenly craved chocolate ice cream. And not just one you buy at the store. A special chocolate ice cream. I had discovered the place a couple of years ago when I was out with friends, and it had become a regular hang out place. It might just be because I was missing the boys, but I would go for the ice cream anyway. 

It didn't take long before I was rushing out of the door with a jacket in my arms. It wasn't too late. Around seven in the afternoon. The sun was still up, which wasn't strange considering it was still the middle of summer. The air was light and warm, making it a relaxing atmosphere. I decided to listen to some music, just to contribute a bit more to the scenery. I put my playlist on shuffle, but somehow my phone knew to play the perfect song. "Ophelia" played in my ears. The melody started gently with the singer starting soon after. It wasn't necessarily the happiest song, but I felt calm listening to it.