First Love

Kabanata 9

Phobia

It was more embarrassing when we get home. Malakas ang ulan at naiwan akong hindi makagalaw sa driver seat. I was scared, okay? Raining and lightning is one of my weakness! Damn, sinubukan kong I-overcome iyon noong bata pa ako pero hindi ko talaga magawa-gawa kaya hanggang ngayon ay hindi mawalawala sa akin.

"Baby, dinner's  here" It was his soft voice in the door, I am still in my bed. Can't move. Patuloy pa rin ang pagkidlat at malakas na ulan sa labas. Kahit pa soundproofed ang condo ko ay natatakot pa rin ako. Unti-unting bumukas ang pintuan, he entered. I look at him, he looks so worried. Tumabi ito sa akin.

"Come here..." He said. Lumapit naman ako sa kaniya. I saw how lightning draw in the sky. Napapikit ako at inilagay ang dalawang kamay sa aking tainga. I was surprised when he hold my hand and cover my ears as well.

"You're still scared" Aniya. "Look at me" Sinunod ko ang sinabi niya. His green eyes make my system in calm.

"Don't be scared, I am here. Hindi ako aalis, I am staying with you tonight.." Aniya sabay ngiti. Tumango ako, sabay kaming lumabas sa kwarto at nag-dinner. Simula noong naging kami ay tatlong beses na akong kumakain ng kanin sa isang araw. There's no in Commander's command. He will always repeat his sentence every morning 'Breakfast is the most important meal of the day, eat your breakfast, baby'

After we dine, we watch Dear Jhon by Nicholas Sparks. It was  his novel, na ginawang movie. The guy is an Army, and he met that college girl named Vanessa. The story tackles about long distance relationship, they have no communication in phone but in mail letters lang. I was impressed about their relationship but in the end it leave me a heart break.

Jhon's Dad died together when Vanessa get married into another man. Jhon was so devastated. I feel pity for him.

"If I were that man, I will stole my girl" He commented. We are both in bed right now, he's hugging me from the back. I move, kaya ngayon ay magkaharap na kami. Hindi pa rin kami tapos mag-debate tungkol sa napanood namin kanina.

"Really? Then what if that girl loves his husband?" I concluded. He just look at me and give me a warm kiss in my cheek. He is tall and massive, buti naman ay kasya kami sa kama ko. He moved facing me.

"I don't care. She is mine to begin with, I will be the man she will ended up" He said. Isiniksik ko ang aking ulo kaniyang dibdib. I can feel his lips in my head.

"Anong kinatatakotan mo?" I asked. Tumila na ang ulan at heto kami ngayon, nag-uusap. I heard him sigh.

"Takot ako sa manok." Natawa ako sa sinabi niya. He's a hell of a commander but he is scared to chickens? Ang yaman ng taong ito pero takot sa manok? Seryoso?

"Stop laughing, you made me turned on"

I stop. Okay, he is still a man and I am still a woman. We are in a relationship and yes, we are adults. You know what I mean.

"But, I'm afraid of losing you. Okay lang sa akin na habulin ako ng isang dosenang manok basta ba sa'yo papunta." Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba ako o kikiligin sa banat niya.

"Matulog kana nga" I said and I turn around. Hindi na ako nakaharap sa kaniya. Hindi na ako nagulat ng niyakap niya ako. His big long hands is now around my waist. Thank God, we have different blankets. I waited minutes to see if his asleep. I moved ang look at him, he is peacefully sleeping.

"I love you, my Commander" I said as I kiss his cheek and then darkness took my system.

I woke up with man scent in my nostrils. Pamilyar na pamilyar sa akin ang pabangong iyon. Unti-unting kong iminulat ang aking mga mata. I saw a silhouette of a man, standing and sipping on his mug. Damn, so manly and hot. Tanging sinag lang ng araw ang naramdaman ko, ilang sandali pa ay lumingon ito sa aking direksyon.

"Good morning, sleepy head. Wake up, and eat your breakfast. Ihahatid kita sa clinic mo" Muntik ko ng makalimutan na may trabaho pa pala ako. Damn!

I kiss him in the cheeks. "Good morning, my Commander" He groan when I call him on his rank. I love teasing him in the morning. Ngayon palang ako nanalo sa kaniya. Before I eat my breakfast, I took a bath. Nasa mesa na siya ng lumabas ako. Wearing a simple V-neck shirt and high waist jeans with a ponytail hair.

"You change your look, nice. Really suit in my baby" He compliment and he lick his lower lip. I watch how his tongue travel on his lower lip. Damn, that lips of his! Naramdaman ko nalang na nakagapos na ako sa kaniya. His arms is now on my waist, both locked in his arms. His breath tickles in my neck. What a beautiful morning!

Kung ganito ang umaga ko araw-araw, please 'wag nyo'na kong gigisingin pa!

"But...its really nice if I am the one will only look at you." He whisper. Kinagat ko ang pamibabang labi at binasa iyon.

"I-Ikaw lang naman ang nakakita sa akin ng ganito, wala ng iba.."

"Hmm.."

"A-At mga pasyente ko.."

"Those patients of yours is really a burden in my eyes. If there's a man, call me. Let me talk to him first. Ayokong ikaw ang kausapin niya, ako muna."

Why so possessive, One?

Humarap ako sa kaniya, kasabay niyon ang paglapat ko ng aking labi sa kaniyang mapupulang labi.

"Why are you Psychologist, too?" I asked. He nodded. Nakasablay ang mga kamay ko sa kaniyang batok.

"No way.."

"Yes, baby, ask my Mama" He said and then his lips travels on my neck. Damn, I feel heated!

"O-One, w-what are you doing?"

"Kissing you?" Inosenteng tanong niya.

Fuck! Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang idiniin ang kaniyang labi sa aking leeg.

"There, it's my mark, baby. Let those bastards touch you and I will twist there arms in a brutal way"

Damn, I love this man. Kahit takot pa siya sa manok, mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya.