First Love

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We made love that day and days went passed, we celebrate Christmas together. For me that was the most amazing days in my entire life and today is January 1. Nasa barko na kami at malapit nang dumaong sa Pilipinas.

"Langga.." I can feel his hands around my waist. A habit of him. Tss. "Yes?"

"What gown do you like? What motif do you want? I can't wait to see you walking down the aisle" Ramdam ko ang panunubig ng mga mata ko. Great God, you let this man came in my life and change every bit of it.

"A red one? Isn't weird? But I love the motif of grey and red, perhaps. Would you like it too?" I moved aside and I cupped his cheeks. His lips pouted, so cute.

"Okay, we will make it. But we need to have their blessings first.." He planted a kiss on my head. "Okay, then" I said. The sea breeze is still in my skin as we landed in the port. His benz is there and we went to our house.
"Sa tingin mo, would Tita love to hear the news?" He ask with hesitance on his voice. I pinch his nose. "They will love to hear it, baby." He made a turn and then our gate opens. My Mama and Papa is now standing infront of our door. Tumigil ang sasakyan at binuksan ito ni One pero bago pa ako makalabas ay lumuhod muna ito. Holding a color black small box with a diamond heart shape ring.

"Oh, my god" I burst, my tears are now falling. He is just smiling and I can hear my mother sobs, I heard confetti pop. "Kasalan na 'yan! Ask her, One dali!" It was Mandy and Yurki.

"Ask her, One" It was Eresia.

"Will you marry me for the second time around, langga?" I nooded. His smile made me cried harder. Tama nga nga ang sinabi niya sa akin doon sa Hawaii.

"Say it, please.."

"YES! I am gonna marry you, god. God knows I love you in every inch of your life.." I cried. He put the ring in my finger and then he kiss my forehead, "Thank you, I love you. It will always be you, Ralia." We hug each other.

We had happy dinner together, Yurki is struggling with Mandy's pregnancy and Eresia might be wed next month because Exequiel is already set and they're just thinking for a right date. One spend his night with me, we cuddle no make love. Well, we gonna do it if we want. I ignore that thought, nasa clinic ako pero kung saan saan napupunta ang utak ko.

"So, Ms. Velaskes, you're fine. Just don't be stress so you feel good and yes, you're slowly getting good. Naoover-come muna ang panic attack na meron ka, hope to see you next time. Have a great day" I said.

"Thank you, Doc. Have a great afternoon" I nooded and smile. I watch her back slowly fading in my sight. I bit my lower lips, hinaplos ko ang singsing nasa aking kamay. It was so pretty, I wonder what One's doing right now.

Yesterday was fun, like, in my whole life. Doon lang ulit ako naging masaya. Hindi ko ito naranasan limang taon ng nakaraan, I mean, before I meet One again and he became my boyfriend and now, my fiancèe. He is really a good man, I can see that. I could felt that. I never regret rising my flag for him, he deserve the worth.

He deserve me even I am too much for him, because when he came, I am not well stable, emotionally and mentally. I am physically and spiritually fine but my heart and mind isn't. My heart is not in a good state, my happiness is not that happiness, just normal. When One became my suitor, a smile curve in my lips and it never fade.

Maybe love is just four letters but it has so many definition and you don't know which one is true, but, love is not love without, jealousy, anger, pain, hatred and unconditional love. It's not love if you couldn't feel those mix roller coaster kind of emotions. This is reality, we live, we feel, we breath and of course we eat, scratch the last one.

I heard my phone ring. I immediately answer it. "Hey, baby" Bati ko.

"Langga.." His voice is soft yet I can feel his not fine. "What's wrong, One?" He sigh.

"Langga, I don't want to lie but I'm gonna meet someone tonight.." He paused and it take seconds before he continue.

"And it's a girl.." I became silent and distant. Maraming katanungan ang pumasok sa isipan ko pero ni isa hindi ko iyon sinabi sa kaniya. I trust him and I love him. Hindi niya ako itatali kung hindi niya kayang panindigan.

"I don't mind, langga. It will be fine.." I said. I heard him sigh. "You're not jelous?" Mabilis akong napapikit.

Oh, Ralia, don't be fool!

"I-I am not, by the way, where are you?" I change the topic. "In the ship, we will meet here." Mariin akong huminga ng malalim at pinag-isipan ang susunod na sasabihin. I don't want him to feel that I am not fine, because, the truth is I am curious like a cat! Damn, Ralia. Damn!

"O-Okay, I'm going home. I'm still at the clinic, naparami ang pasyente ngayon, e" I heard him laugh softly in other line. "Stop laughing, One"

"Then tell me you're jealous, 'cos baby, you're not good at pretending"

"Whatever, Commander. Bye" I said.

"Bye, love you." He said. "I always love you" I replied. I am the first who hang up then I check my things and go home.

How I miss my home.

A/N: Super late ud! I am so tireeeed~