Secret Games

13

Lexi's P.O.V

As Cameron dropped me off at my house, I got lost in my thoughts: I didn't like him. He was cute and all, but I didn't feel anything for him in any possible way. All I could think of was the number of places in the popularity scale this would make me go up. Going out with Cam meant lots of dedication but it would surely pay off! I was so excited to see every single student in Northwood high staring at us holding hands through the corridors. But I was especially excited to see Noah, Laela, and Hailey, staring straight at us with resentment. Specially Hailey. I know, I know, Laela is my "Bestie!" but I mean, she does actually prefer Hannah than me obviously. Since the start of the school year they both have been ignoring me basically, so I had to find myself new friends like Mckenzie. She is fun and sociable but she doesn't really talk about her feelings or thoughts. And I mean it isn't that bad. She has helped me meet new people who are far more interesting than my friends from last year. She has integrated me into her cool group of friends. I am one of them, one of the popular. Whenever there is a party I am always invited to.

But being her friend is hard even if it has so many advantages. As long as I follow where her conversational leads we are friends. She chats in her animated way about her life and insignificant problems while I show concern, empathy, and drop-in helpful suggestions. But no sooner have I changed track she's fidgeting and her eyes keep flicking to her phone. Already her attention span has gone and I might as well be talking to the wall. My conversation dies in my throat as I watch her face sag into boredom, then in the second that the air is empty she starts talking about her life again. That is her disadvantage, but I guess that maybe Cam can become the person I go and talk to. I don't know, I believe I don't need that anymore. I used to be so weak now that I look back to my past. My plan for the future is just to go out with Cameron for a few months and leave him just before he is totally in love. It's just perfect. And by then I will be the most popular girl in school "What could go wrong?" I asked myself.