Love Me

|Chapter 21|

A/N: don't hate me after this please 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Natalie Pierce Mendes

It had been over two weeks since Shawn practically kicked me out. That night, if obviously walked to my parents house. Shawn had told both of our families that we'd had a bad fight. Since they were still in the dark about Shawn and I's actual relationship.

I was doing... okay. I guess. I felt numb in the inside. There was this constant feeling of emptiness. Every little thing I did every day reminded me of him.

"Nat, someone's at the door!" Alena yelled from upstairs as the bell rang.

"I'm aware!" I shouted back before answering the door. It was the post-man. I grabbed the stack of letters, invites from him, thanked him and closed the door.

I separated all the things addressed to my mother and all the ones addressed to my father when a big unfamiliar envelope fell out of my hands. I picked it up to see it was addressed to me.

Strange.

I opened it up and read through it before my heart fell to my stomach.

Divorce papers.

Shawn had sent me divorce papers.

And he'd already signed them. All that was left was my signature.

Shaking, the papers flew out of my hands and I fell to the floor on my knees. Alena ran downstairs when she heard the noise of my knees meeting the floor and kneeled beside me.

We were over.

Shawn and I were now.. merely a memory.

"Oh god!" I breathed out loud as I sat up straight in bed

It was just a dream.

A nightmare.

That's all.

But not all of it. I was still away from Shawn. I was still not beside the person I was supposed to be right now. I was in my bed. At home. My parents home.

It was only 2 am in the morning, I didn't feel like going back to sleep. I grabbed my guitar that was always hidden away at the back of my closet and sat down on the edge of my bed.

Before all this drama started with this arranged marriage I used to play guitar and write my own songs. I hadn't had the chance to in these past 5 months.

I strummed a few chords on the guitar before the melody and the words cane spilling out of me.

"Can I open my mouth and let the words come spilling out?.."  I sang our softly.

"Show you the side of me
that I haven't figured out?
And I want you to know
all the things that I think about.." i strummed.

"Can I let it out?.." I sniffled out.

"If I told you my secrets
and I showed you my weakness
Would you love me or leave me?
Tell me, how would you see me?
If I told you my thoughts
and showed you all of my scars
Would you love me or leave me?
Tell me, how would you see me?" I emphasised each and every word with a strum.

"Love me or leave me.. Love me or leave me.. Love me or leave me....Love me or leave me.." I strummed one last time before hanging my head low. Tears fell from my eyes as my entire body racked with sobs.

I didn't know when I caught feelings. But I did.

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-Taylor💋