Jackie Jones and the Boys Next Door(COMPLETE)

Chapter 19: The truth about my concussion

The next month goes by painfully slow. It's a lot of work to hang out with your best friend and not kiss him. It's taking a toll on me. I have put a little distance between Jonas and I. I haven't been alone with him since the night we both panted like puppies in his room. Except in the car to go pick up take out one night. Not many things can happen when we're driving so that was why I made that exception.

Tosh and Hazel are official and Joey is still playing the field. Jonas isn't dating anybody and hasn't since Cheryl. When I asked him the other night why he wasn't dating anyone he said, "I'm not interested in another meaning-less relationship." So I guess he was serious that day in the store. I imagine when he does meet some one I'll become a jealous basket case because when Lauren rubbed her hand over his shoulder on her way to her desk yesterday I almost screamed at her to get her disgusting HO hands off him.

I still can't come to grips with my feelings for him. That night in his room when we were both panting like puppies, I thought he felt it too but I think he was just as he said, drunk.

Tosh and I are on our way to school. We have to be there early to re-take a test we missed last week when we decided we didn't feel like staying the whole day.

"Jax, I'm really sorry about Tristan's party." He says solemnly.

"Tosh that was like a month ago." I laugh. "We already made up."

"I know...I just want you to know I'm not jealous and I don't think you belong to me. You're free to date whoever you'd like. I'm setting you free." He says full of arrogance. "Are you feeling any animal magnetism towards anyone?"

I laugh and slap his arm. "No." I say with a giant smile. "Thanks for freeing me though Tosh....you're such a good friend." I feign appreciation. "I mean Master....thanks for this freedom...it's overwhelming for a girl like me." I place my hand on my heart in a dramatic attempt to point out what a complete douche he is. "You'll always be my hero...."

"Stop! Now I feel like a bigger idiot." He says with almost a blush on his cheek.

"You absolutely should! You just freed me you giant imbecile!" I scream and he rubs his face in remorse.

"I didn't mean it....it came out wrong." He laughs.

"Just grow up a little Tash-a." I quip and he tickles my side.

"I'm serious though. Even if you want to date....say my brother....I'd be okay. I promise." He suggests with a cautious tone.

"Jonas?" I feign surprise.

"Only brother I have...tall guy...makes all the girls swoon." He teases. "Not nearly as good looking as me but he's okay. I have this hunch about you two."

"I already told you I'm not interested in him. Can we please stop talking about it. I feel queasy imagining him and I together." Only I don't feel queasy I feel alive at the thought of kissing him. Tosh may be freeing me to date his brother but I know what I felt from Jonas that night in his room after his birthday party. He doesn't like me that way, he rolled over.

"What if he was interested in you?" Tosh smiles widely at me.

"Then I'd barf and rip my own eye balls out." I say through laughter. Tosh looks at me like I'm crazy. "I'd, ya know, rather go hot tubbing with....." I can't think of anything or anyone. I can feel Tosh staring at me. It's got to be a really bad one so he doesn't suspect my ravenous feelings for his gorgeous brother. I turn my head enough to see him out of the corner of my eye. "Go hot tubbing with Adolf Hitler." I shrug with a pinched up face and he rolls his eyes.

"Well, don't do either of those. Just think about it." He says calmly.

Just think about it?