Mi Reina

Chapter 65

KandiceKardashian: I wish I was good enough

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"How did Elle react?" Kim asks as we are getting glammed up for the Billboard Music Awards.

"She was surprisingly calm about it, I think that she saw this coming so she replaced me with some boyband called PrettyMuch." I answer with a sigh. "Mentally I'm not at that stage where I can just go on tour, I also just had a baby. I don't want to be travelling city to city with a newborn."

"That's understandable." Kim pauses for a moment to just look at me. "How are you feeling?"

"Like shit." I chuckle. "But life goes on."

I wasn't feeling up for the blue carpet so I skipped it and went right into the venue. Kim being the amazing twin that she is, skipped the carpet to be at my side. It really makes me think of how far we have come with our relationship. Before I got pregnant, we were arguing every single day and now I can't fathom the idea of being without her.

Since giving birth, I have not been very active on social media and I typically use my phone to take pictures of my son. I don't feel like answering a ton of questions or bumping into anyone that I know so I'm trying to keep a low profile.

I recently dropped out of the F.A.M.E tour and I know that it is all over the media. People are going to have their questions and I don't feel like providing any answers. 

Since Cristian is still young, I left him at home with Khloe and Kylie so I know that he will be well looked after.

"You look beautiful." Kim comments and I look at myself in a mirror. Over the past few days, I have dropped a substantial amount of weight. You wouldn't believe that I had a baby with the way that I am looking. 

I love how slim I am but I also know that it is due to stress. I had a lawyer contact me not too long ago about the divorce and I feel that Jose isn't playing fair at this point.

"You look beautiful yourself." I tell her as she pulls out her phone to take some cute mirror pictures of us.