My Silenced Cries

Help...

Please. Help me out of this diseased mind.

I know that it's impossible. But pull me out of this darkness.

Wake me up from these nightmares.

Show me that there is still purpose in this life.

Even if you can't be here.

Love is the strongest and most powerful weapon of choice on this earth.

Its beauty compares to nothing. Ivori, your my love.

You build me up.

You knock me down.

You don't understand me.

No matter how bad you want to.

Only you can save me.

That's a lot of responsibility I know. And the day you back down; is the day that I'll be running on empty.

But I am empty.

Right now.

I've lost you. I pushed you away. Too far this time.

My disorders drive us apart, exactly like I knew they would.

I told you I was prepared for this. But I thought it was going to be last forever...

I wanted it to last forever.

I wanted to spend forever in the silenced trance, I wanted more then anything for you to be mine.

But... If it hurts this much to try to let you go. Then it must've been love.

But tonight. I know that I have to let you go.

I can't keep doing this to you.

We are all born to die.

Death is something you are destined to face one day.

I choose today.

I choose tomorrow.

And the next day.

Death. In all it's beauty.

So please. Stop now. Don't fallow me. I'm headed for hell.

Because the depths of nothingness have never been so bright.

Only your words cut me like the silver ublade.

That's why...

Your the reason.

I can't go on like this.

So I won't.

I have to tell you.

But not here.

No I couldn't post something like that.

I love you.

With every thing I have left.

Out of breath. I scream to you for help.

But you choose to wait. Until you can hold me.

But I can't wait that long. Can't you see?

Your words me more to me then any kiss, any hug, any smile could ever mean.

All I want to know.

Is how do you feel?

---Love <3