My Silenced Cries

Trying...

I'm trying, I am I promise

I'm trying so hard.

Just to fall back in love.

I'm loosing you

I am

I know it

I pushed you to far and now I'm just watching as we slowly drift apart.

Im trying

I want to want you

But I just don't...

I'm trying, almost just forcing myself to fall back in love.

Trying to remember how excited I was, and all of our plans.

Trying so hard just to remember anything about you.

I want to love you.

But I don't anymore...

Maybe holding you would help.

I'm trying I really am, I wanna make you happy, 

           I wanna make you proud

            I wanna be yours...

But there's no more will left to fight and we're both drifting apart.

             Yes I know that's my fault.

I feel like it's almost too late... 

              But I feel like I don't even care enough to change anything....

But in all honesty...

I don't love you

But I want to.

I wanna love you again.

But I just dont... 

I'm trying...

But nothing is working....

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