My Silenced Cries

Never ever

This is break up.

For sure.

It's never hurt this bad, too lose someone.

I've never been forced to hold back tears at memeories that flood back from everywhere. 

I've never been reminded of you from everything.

Never thought any of this was possible...

I never noticed how real my emotions can be,

never paid attention to what I was really doing.

Never ever thought I'd really push you away.

I always just thought you would stay...

     But today I am realizing, you can't neglect the ones you love. 

For oneday they will leave to find someone better. 

You can't push someone day after day.

For oneday they will hit the edge and fall off

     And your left alone.

I've never been forced to stay so strong, never been able to accept that I was so wrong.

Ive never felt more blank, more ugly, more lifeless.

Never wished I could go back to that night and not kiss you. Until now.

I've never wanted to let go so badly.

Always wanted to be held so tightly.

But today I realized this is about you not me, and I need to change.

This is breaking up.

This is moving on.

This is letting go.

And hoping to stay strong.

This is the end.

Where you finally leave and I finally grow up.

Here is the turning point to everything.

Where we start to figure out who we are and what we wanna be as people.

This is death to old, birth to the new.

Where our childish ways are left behind and our outlook on life changes.

Losing love...

Losing your best friend.

Losing your meaning of life...

All to start new

fresh

over

again

and this time it will be three times more beautiful...

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