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Chapter 30

"Oh am I now? I am short! That is what makes me cute!" He says, teasing Nines about height. "No, No, No......even if you were my height you would still be adorable~," he says kissing Gavin's cheek softly. Gavin laughs. "Oh, is that so~?" He asks, smiling. "Is it cause I am soft?" He asks the android, putting Lily aside and climbing over Nines. "Your hair and your heart is yes" he explains placing one hand in Gavin's hair and the other on his hip. "Hm," he hums, smirking. "Anything else~?" He asks, looking back up from where he was seated to Nines' eyes.

The Android smiles "You're hard in many places but you also have a soft heart" he says smirking a bit and chuckling. Gavin blushes, looking away. "Niiines!" He says, extremely flustered. "You... Aren't wrong... But still!" He whines a bit, covering his face. The Android smiles as he takes Gavin's hands and takes them away from his face kissing one of them. Gavin still looks away, flustered but smiling. "You goddamn..." He says, trying to keep a straighter face, knowing it isn't possible with his gay self. The Android smiles "See you're adorable~" he compliments him as he puts the hand that was on Gavin's hip slightly up his shirt.

"N-not really..." He mumbles, giving a bit of a... Confused but tempted. "W-wh.." He asks, leaning closer to Nines, almost being able to kiss him. "Tempting, isn't it~?" He asks the android. The Android smiles and sticks his tongue out "Maybe~" he says chuckling softly. Gavin smirks. (my fuckin' English.. smirkis) "What do you mean, maybe?" He asks the android softly. He kisses Nines once Nines puts his tongue back.

The Android kisses him back passionately for about 15 seconds before pulling away to breath "Not sure what I mean but I know what I want" he says smirking kissing him again. "Oh, of course, you know what you want! Why wouldn't you~?" He asks Nines, panting softly after he breaks it again. Gavin smirks at Nines, putting his hands on the androids' chest. (I typed the word "why" about 20 times for no GODDAMN REASON)

"Well what do you want?~" he asks in a deeper tone smirking a bit as he tilted his head to the right. He narrows his eyes and looked into Gavins. He thought, even though he didn't need to. Even if it were a split second. Gavin smiled, saying, "You~." His smile turned to a smirk as he leaned closer. "I love you Nines. I love you so much," he says, then kissing Nines' jaw. The Android felt shivers up his spine as he blushed "I love you too~" he says. The Android had always had a sensitive jaw, neck and collar bone so anytime Gavin did this he immediately felt a bit of euphoria.

Gavin continued smirking. "Oh, you're not gonna stop me this time~?" He asks Nines softly. He bit his lip a bit, out of habit. Yet another bad habit he needs to get over. The Android chuckled "This is my last present for you for Christmas, do whatever you want~" he explains putting his hand more up Gavin's shirt onto his chest. "You are too kind Nines, but I will save what I would do for later," he says, still staying, "that doesn't mean I am not enjoying this though." He leans back a bit, still on top of Nines. You had the audacity to try and do what you shouldn't have? You really are brave. Not in a good way thou- Shut the fuck up. His mind thought, but he then stopped it. This is my palace. He thinks, still smirking like an idiot.

The Android smiles as he takes one and runs it through his own hair "Well I'm never gonna turn you down" he says smiling as he takes one of Gavin's hands and puts it up to his lips giving it a soft but drug out kiss "I love you" he says with a slightly muffled voice. Gavin smiles. Good, keep going... He sighs happily, saying, "I love you more though." You messed it up, wtF?! No, I didn't. He argued inside his head while everything was going on. The Android smiled as he kissed him lightly on the lips "I know you love me more but I'm gonna keep saying I love you no matter what" he states taking the hand off Gavin's chest and putting it onto Gavin's cheek.

"Fair enough," he said, putting his hand on Nines'. Stop it, idiot! You are messing it up! No, I am not. He argued with himself, laying on the android for a while. "Hm... I am hungry," he said, getting back up and getting off Nines. No, stop. You are doing this wrong. He says he loves you, but does he? No- What did I say? He continues to argue with himself while he gets up and looks for food. The Android sits up "want to go out or do you want me to fix you something?" he asks while Lila stares at him "What he's my husband and your my daughter, I've gotta love him too" he explains to her. (NO NOT YET. HE JUST REFERS TO GAVIN AS HIS HUSBAND NOT THINKING ABOUT IT. Soon though UwU)

"Almost at least," he says. "And, I honestly don't know what I wanna do. Even though I have tried my best to clear my mind with many different things, I still argue with myself and stuff," he explains to the android, staring off into space. No. No. No. Don't. You. Dare. "Could you help me with it?" He asks Nines, looking up at him. "Yeah of course," he says getting up and walking over to him "Tell me anything," he says as he leans on the counter in the kitchen putting his hands together "I'm all ears," he says doing the classic white person smile when someone passes you on the street.

('The classic white person smile when someone passes you on the street'... Nines... You aren't a fuckin classic, you like... You hard to explain. Oh-oh! I have a better one! 'He leans on the kitchen counter, putting his hands together' "Hi, I will be your guidance counsellor today!" I am so sorry)

"It is hard to explain," he starts. Then trying to keep it serious with an attempt at keeping a straight face, but can't for two reasons. "All I can say is, it is kinda like a squip. (OH MY rA9 THAT AUTO WAS SCRIPT! If you know, you know) Kinda, but... A mean voice telling me everything I am doing is wrong. Sometimes it feels extra manipulative and takes on your voice and say things you would never say," he explains, gesturing after he gets the metaphor out of the way. "I just... Need help..." He says, putting his hands together at last and intertwining his own fingers.

"If you dont mind me asking,when do the voices normally start or start getting worse and what do they say?" he asks spending a second eith his eyes closed taking in the information. "I lose track arguing with it," he says. "For example, 'He says he loves you, but does he? No.' I usually cut it off, but sometimes I don't and it trails off. Another example, 'You have the audacity to try and do something you shouldn't have?'" He tells Nines. He is silent, not wanting to say more, wanting to explain it all at the same time. The hell you think you are doing?! He sighs. "Like now, it is talking to me like I am the problem," he says, sad. "When did the voices start, at around what age?" he asks taking one of Gavins hands and holds it "were you ever told you had schizophrenia?" be asked closing his eyes again.

"It... I... Think this is recent. I don't believe it is schizophrenia, because I know it isn't real. I..." He stammers, not knowing how to explain it. He had a nervous look, trying to think of what to say. "I can't seem to think past it. It is more of a mental block than anything, I don't know the real term, but..." Gavin tells Nines. "You could have Auditory hallucination. A paracusia, or auditory hallucination, is a form of hallucination that involves perceiving sounds without auditory stimulus. A common form of auditory hallucination involves hearing one or more talking voices." he explains "And I get it honestly,I had a women named Amanda in my head for so long, so I know where you are coming from" he says looking down as the counter for a moment.

"She was intentionally there though, a-and you could eventually see her at some points," he said. Gav's mind wanders. "Amanda... An ai named after Li's instructor... Oh! Sorry! Wandered there a bit!" He says, looking up again. "I uh... That sounds a bit right..." Gavin looks guiltily at the android. His fiancé. His. His love. Whatever you wanted to call the android, Nines. He felt bad. He always has something wrong. Nines had to listen to his babble about it. He didn't say anything else, biting his lip. "Yeah..." He says for no reason. Gav never wanted Nines to be pained or sad. It hurt him to see Nines like that. "I-I am sorry, I..." Gavin says, apologising profusely for no absolute reason. That's right. You have done so many things wrong. "Nines, I am sorry," he tells the android, holding his face.

The Android looked at him putting his hand on Gavins and held it "Its alright you dont have to apologize" he states taking his other hand and putting it on his cheek "I understand how it feels, Amanda was very similar to what you have" he states "Again dont say your sorry, one you cant control it two I would rather listen to your problems then let you suffer in silence" he explains doing the classic white person smile again. Gavin still felt bad. "But I always have problems... And I feel bad about the weight you carry along with them," he tells Nines. He bites his lip again. Quiet. He thinks of his own. For once, he is thinking to himself instead of arguing with himself. Only temporary I bet...  "I still feel I need to apologise, you know this," he says, not looking up. He stands there for a while, biting his lip, scared.