It's all over

Take my pain away

"OH MY GOD KURT"

I quickly pull my sleeve down stuff the blade in my pocket and wipe my tears I know I've been caught and I know I've fucked up but fake it till you make it.

I slowly turn to see Blaine looking at me with not disgust or with repulsion but with concern and a little bit of anger. I just stare at him completely blank until he speaks again "what the hell are you doing" I compose myself "nothing" I say quickly and then try to leave when he blocks my exit. "That was NOT nothing" Blaine looks at Kurt with tears threatening to spill and he chokes out "lift up your sleeve" "...what.....n..n...no.....why...would....I-um need to do that" I barely stutter it out. "Because if it was nothing then you wouldn't mind me taking a look" "please...don't" I whimper as he reaches for my sleeve. Then the bell to signal the end of second period blares and I take this opportunity to run out of the bathroom.

I take the rest Of the day off knowing my dad and Carole are both working late I run into my bathroom and clean up the dried blood on my arms then I lock my door and stuff a sweater under the gap open my window sit on the windowsill and pull out a joint. I don't smoke weed a lot only when I really need to unwind and relax. I start inhaling the smoke and and exhaling as slowly as possible not wanting the substance to leave my body as it's clouding brain and I start to unwind I start giggling to my self when I hear the doo slam.

"Fuck" I whisper it must be Finn he's not supposed to be here he's supposed to be in glee club. I put out my joint and hide the rest of it the bottom of my drawer, remove the sweater from under the door and Jump under the covers of my bed with some books and my laptop pretending to study. Lucky for me Finn stops to eat before he comes up the stairs. He walks into my room with out even knocking nag and panic engulfs my whole body as I fear he may smell the devils lettuce that I've let into my life.

"Kurt, man are you okay how come you weren't in glee club" he asks with genuine worry in his voice " oh I think I'm coming down with something so I decided to miss it you know I don't want to give a performance that isn't my one hundred percent best you know" he looks at me suspiciously "dude what's wrong your eyes look insane right now" " ye I'm fine it must be whatever I'm coming down with. Anyway why aren't you in glee club, I know there isn't much talent like mwha so there really isn't much point being there if this fabulousness isn't there but still you are the 'male lead'" I tried to speak to Finn like my world wasn't collapsing and like I wasn't high and trying to hide it from him " oh well I wanted to make sure you were alright I'm heading back now that I know you wasn't like kidnapped or something" ah how sweet of him to make sure his fag brother who he's burdened with isn't drowning in a pool of his own blood due to a run in with Karofsky and Azimio.

After I was sure Finn left I started spraying my room Finn might be a bit dense but my dad and Carole are smart enough to know that my hair products don't smell of pot. Once that was done I was left alone in my own buzz when there was a knock on the door. Weird I mean Finn has only just left and he usually hangs out with his annoying ass girlfriend after glee club or 'the guys', that always pissed me off I was a guy and I was in glee club sure I might be a bit more effeminate that some of the other guys but still at least I actually helped 'the guys' win their first nay their only game of the season so far last year but no apparently I wasn't 'one of the guys still' urgh. I was snapped out of my thoughts when there came a second knock on the door I tried to put in my normal face instead of my Kurt Hummel is a little stoned face and went to open the door. I was shocked to see a rather shaken Blaine at the door.

I tried to close it because I knew why he was here but he was a lot stronger than me, unsurprisingly because I'm so fucking weak, he stormed in and started pacing the floor I shut the door behind him before I stated snarky "come in why don't you" I just met this dude today and now it feels like he's always around. He just stops pacing to stare at me " do you want something to drink" I ask much more nicely this time. "Can....we.......go up-up stairs?" He asks timidly; of course this took me by surprise but I obliged and showed him to my room.

N/A sorry for the long chapter. I just wanted to say I hope you like the story please message me if you're struggling with some of the issues I'm always here to talk. And please comment I would love to hear feedback.