It's all over

Kurt Hummel is Back

It was my first day back in glee club and I was really nervous I had a text from Blaine to meet him behind the school before we went. I walked up to him and he sat their looking as hot as ever stop it Kurt he will never like you back. Okay so I maybe kind of have a little crush on Blaine but he isn't going to want a broken fuck up like me as a boyfriend. I cleared my throat to make my him aware of my presence. He looks up at me with that dazzling smile "hey you are you ready for glee club?" he asks, my smile falters slightly as I thought he maybe wanted to talk about us but that will never happen. I take a second to compose my self before I plaster on a fake smile and say " yea I'm good don't worry. In fact we should probably head over there".

We walk over in pretty much silence but as we approach the choir room I freeze " I can't do this, I can't go back in there after everything. What happens if nothing changes and they all lied to me?" I start freaking out and Blaine just reaches down and grabs my hand " hey look at me" he says "everything will be okay, you're going to be fine you have Mercedes, Santana, Puck, Brittany and you have me okay I'm not going anywhere." I look into his honey hazel eyes and I see how sincere he is I nod at him and we walk into the choir room neither of us dropping our interlocked hands as we take a seat in the back. 

Blaine and I are engrossed in a conversation about this weeks issue of vogue when were interrupted by Mercedes and Santana " white boy we missed you" Mercedes chirped in a sing song voice. "Yea now that you're here we Mr. Schue is finally going to ignore that pet project Berry and he will actually listen to us." Santana chimed in . It was nice to finally be appreciated in glee club. Not long after that the rest of the glee club filtered in and Mr. Schue spoke up " Okay guys this weeks lesson is going to be on time. More importantly how we spend our time and how we treat those around us because we never know how much time we have left with that person. Like this wasn't the most obviously aimed lesson of all. 

After a surprisingly uneventful glee club I went about the rest of my day as normal and there haven't been any incidents of jocks pushing me around. I assume its because Karofsky was suspended. At lunch I got a text from Blaine telling me to meet him at the usual spot he already had a cigarette lit and waiting for me. I gladly took it off him and relaxed as I let the dark cloud of smoke encompass my lungs and relax me to no end as this is my first cigarette of the day.  We talked mostly about the project and he wants me to go over to his house after school "Sure as long as there is not another intervention waiting for me" I quip.

Blaine chuckles before saying " I doubt anyone will be there anyway so you have nothing to worry about." a flash of hurt crosses Blaine's yes before he masks it again with that charming smile. "Do you want me to drive us?" I question sensing Blaine's discomfort and trying to change the subject. 

Here I though Blaine had the perfect life but it seems we all have demons and some of us are better at hiding it than others. I know it seemed like nothing but a throw away comment but that pain in his eyes tells me something else is behind the comment. I want to know everything about this boy. He became so focused on making sure I was okay that we hardly know anything about each other and I don't mean like what's your favourite movie kind of thing I mean the real stuff. Sure he knows more about me than I do about him but we've barely scratched the surface.

After lunch classes seemed to drag by I was just waiting for that bell to signal the end of the day so I could get to glee club and get out and spend some time with Blaine. I knew I should stop myself because going down this route usually adds another scar or two to my wrist but I can't help myself. I Keep telling myself that maybe this time it will be different that I have a chance with him because he's gay but I know I'm just fooling myself he's like sex on a stick and I'm like a baby penguin. 

When the bell finally rang and it was time for Glee club and I decided for this weeks assignment I was going to sing yesterday by the Beatles. I Put every ounce of emotion pulsing through my body into this song; every horrible name, every punch, every shove into a locker, every time I was tossed into the dumpster, every line I drew on my skin with a razor! Everything I had. a tear escaped my eye and rolled down my cheek as I finished the last line. When I opened my eyes the choir room erupted with applause even Rachel was clapping and Mr. Schue came up to me with a huge smile on his face and said " Kurt that was beautiful it was really great; how would you like to sing that as a solo for sectionals?" I Practically squealed with excitement " Yes thank you Mr. Schue thank you." There was still that voice in my head saying You know he's only saying that because he feels sorry for you right? it's a pity solo!  But those thoughts were knocked as soon as Mercedes yelled " Woooo Kurt Hummel is Back!"

N/A I know I haven't updated in a while but I hope everyone is staying safe. Please Let me know how you like this chapter x