It's all over

Time to go.

It was my first day back at McKinley today. After spending a week in hospital. Blaine visited me a lot whilst I was in hospital and we're becoming great friends. Finn visited as well a couple of times, the first time he broke down so hard and was crying and telling me he was sorry and that he should have stuck up for me. I told him it was okay but it was a little late if I'm honest he should of said something well before I tried to off myself.

Today is my first day back at McKinley and I'm freaking out. Blaine said that he would be there for me and so did Finn but I'm not sure how true those statements are.

I was getting ready for school and when I picked up my satchel my weed supply fell out. I couldn't be more happy about that because if something was going to be there for me today it would definitely be that.

I went down the stairs and my dad was waiting for me with Carole and Finn. My dad approached me and said " Kurt we need your bag" " My bag? What f..for" I barely stuttered out fully aware of the weed and cigarettes in my bag. "We just need to make sure there aren't any sharp objects in there you know. Kurt I know this is uncomfortable but I need to know. You you can't have anything that might hurt you." My face paled and I reached  into my bag and took out a small wallet that is more like a pouch with a zip. And handed it to my dad. "That's what you- um was - Um looking for. But I wouldn't look in.....inside if I- um was you." I let a tear escape my eye and my dad opened the zip inside was old razors and new razors but the majority of blades were used and covered in blood. My dad choked out a  strangled sob and he sat down where Carole was there to comfort him. She also started crying when she saw what my dad was holding. Finn and I just stood there awkwardly and I couldn't take it any more so I just ran outside and into my car away from the stress and the crying and the making me feel absolutely awful.

When I arrived at school I was alone but not for long it was like as soon as I stepped in the doors principal Figgins pulled me into his office and waiting for me was Mr. Schue and coach Sylvester. "Mr. Hummel please take a seat" Figgins said and I sat down warily on one of the seats. "Kurt your dad called us he wants you to join a club he said the last time that this was an issue." "That what was an issue Mr. Schue" I snapped "Kurt please don't make me say it I'm sorry about everything that you went through and the role we may have played in it. We want you to come back to glee club and your father thinks that it will be a good idea for you." "Mr. Schue no offence but you only care about me now when I tried to kill myself. You didn't give a fuck before, pardon my language principal Figgins, but you didn't all's you care about is your little pet project Berry so if you will excuse me I have somewhere to be." I picked up my bag and stormed out. I had some time to kill before first period so I went to the one place I knew I could be alone.

A/N sorry for the filler chapter and for not writing for a while. Hope you like it.