It's all over

Well then.

I decided to skip first period because I needed a release badly so I went to the back of the school to see somebody already sitting there lighter in hand but no cigarette. "Well well well what do we have here" I spit out "care to join me" "well I don't know you just joined the club that I quit so technically we're supposed to be enemies now" I speak harshly towards him because I'm still so riled up " actually there's not much of a club left after your scene this morning" I listen as Blaine speaks while rolling my joint "what do you mean" I ask intrigued "well I don't know the mood kind of shifted after you left it didn't feel like a club more like a country divided. Hell one girl even started crying." "Ye that would be Tina she cry's every time anything happens in that group it's nothing personal" I exhale the smoke and revel in the warm fuzziness it brings to my brain Blaines eyes widen as he realises I'm not just smoking a plain cigarette "lighten up prep school it's not much different from what we were doing yesterday. Want some?" he takes it off me and inhaled like a pro which confuses me as he seemed to be shocked at the mere presence of it. "Not my first time" he says coolly at my shocked exterior "I just didn't think this was your style" he looks at me incredulously "well it looks like we just keep learning things about each other" I say while putting out the joint. He got up and asked if I was coming with him. I decide there's something else that I need to attend to here "No I'm good I'm just gonna hang out here for a bit" he looks at me as if trying to figure something out when seemingly a light bulb goes off in his head as he speaks up "Kurt I'm not leaving you here to cut yourself" I looked at him shocked "I-I...wasn't g-going to do th-at" I know he can't tell I'm lying I usually only stutter when talking about my self harm issues. "Fine if you're staying. I'm staying" "Blaine this is ridiculous go to lesson" "no I'm staying here if you're going to cut you can do it here" "oh my God fine I'll go with you" I decided to just go to the bathroom and continue on with what I was going to do.

We walked around the school when I told him I had to go to the bathroom he followed me in and I looked at him strangely "what are you doing?" I ask "I'm waiting for you" "Blaine I don't need a babysitter. Please just leave me to take a piss alone" he sighs and leaves I walk into the stall and pull out my razor blade and make a slice across my left wrist and soak up the swell of relief that I feel and then I continue to make lines as dotted blood appears and trickles into the other cuts as I decide I've been in here to long I clean up my cuts and exit the boys bathroom to find Blaine waiting for me. Before he says "roll up your sleeve" "what no" "Kurt I swear to God if you have nothing to hide till up your sleeve I'm not stupid" "fine" I lift my sleeve up and reveal the extremely fresh cuts I chance a glance up to his face and he looks pained I can't bare to look at him I pull my sleeve down and the bell rings I run to my next period leaving Blaine alone.

I sit in my French class repeating what the teacher says. I love French because I'm fluent in it I speak as perfectly as I speak English so I can let my mind relax. I'm a little off because I'm stoned as fuck right now and I'm getting death glares from dwarf Berry herself but I don't even care. When this lesson ends Rachel corners me outside of classroom to have a go but before she has the chance I'm called into Figgins' office I start to feel extremely paranoid as I take a seat in one of the chairs "ah Mr.Hummel thank you for coming as you know you are one of our most prestigious students despite your multiple absences from classes but I'm sure it's for good reason." I calm at his words but I'm still extremely tense as he talks "we would like you to represent us next month at the schools gathering for new students we would like you to speak for the French department and then perform with the glee club to show your versatile talents" I think about my plans for my not so future and speak "I respectly decline principal Figgins as I have extra credit assignments and I'm no longer in glee club" Figgins looked shocked "Ah just think about it and we will see what we can do maybe you can get extra credit for this" "thank you principal Figgins I will keep that in mind" I say as I make a swift exit.