I Am Myself (Frans)

Chapter Seven

*Sans' POV*
"Um, Sans?" Frisk whispered to me, "I don't think I should drink much. It makes me lose some control over Chara and then they..."
"don't worry, kiddo, i will watch over you and step in if you need some help." i reassured them. they calmed down a bit but not completely. "just have fun, ok? don't let chara take that away."
Frisked smiled at me and went to the kitchen to help bring undyne some drinks and snacks.

when we settled down again, we started playing more games. some drinking games too. i carefully watched over Frisk as i promised, to make sure they are doing fine. the more they drunk, the more often i could see the distant look of chara talking to them. their eyes widened with fear a lot of times. i wondered what that brat was telling Frisk. they are a brave, determined soul and don't get scared by much.

later, i saw them clenching their fist tightly and then looking at the clenched hand as if they saw a ghost. that seemed enough to me. Frisk was now more often scared than having fun and chara started taking over their movements.
"ok guys, time to pack it up for tonight. i'm bone tired," i made the joke to stop undyne from protesting the end of the party. everybody took of to their rooms. undyne and alphys shared the guest room and metta needed do plug in for the night, so he used the pc in bro's room. i personally made sure he won't sneak into papy's bed. Frisk won my room and i took the couch in the living room. we said our goodnights and went to sleep.

all seemed to go surprisingly well.

*Frisk's POV*
I woke up in the middle of the night in cold sweat. It wasn't real. It was just a dream. I tried to persuade myself, but nothing calmed me down. It all felt too real. I jumped out of the bed, trying to remember where I am. The dark room smelled of something calming... Sans! The party! I was in Sans' and Papyrus' house. I quietly went to the hallway and down to the living room. Sans was there, sleeping on the couch.

"Sans.." I whispered. No reply. I went closer and touched his hand. "Sans."
"hmm..?" he snored and slept again.
"Sans!" I shook his hand and leaned over him.
"uh what? Frisk? what are you..?" he mumbled, confused, "why are you crying?"
"I-... I had a nightmare," I didn't realize I was crying until he said it, "can you please... come sleep next to me?"

"um... what was your dream about?" he sat up, concerned. Only now I saw that his cheeks shine lightly when he blushes. Cute. It calmed me down a bit, but remembering the dream brought the fear back.
"I-I saw two humans. I was very afraid of them, but they still felt kind of familiar, almost like... family... And they were getting closer and closer and I was so terrified of them... And then-..." I started sobbing and hugged Sans, who was still sitting on the couch. He hugged me back and pulled me onto his lap.
"it's ok, kid. just let it all out." he said as I sobbed uncontrollably into his shoulder.
"Then- then there was a knife in my hand... And then I-...." I couldn't say it. "Sans it felt so real. I'm so scared. What if it's not a dream but a memory? I can still see them lying there on the floor... The blood..."
"You didn't do anything, Frisk. It was just a nightmare. I'm here, you don't have to be afraid." Sans started speaking softly to my ear. I just cried and cried.

I didn't notice when he warped us, but after a while, we were lying down on his bed, he was holding me to his chest so I could cry myself dry and softly mumbled calming things to my ear while stroking my hair.
I have no idea how long it took me to calm down but I eventually did. Having another person this close to you is really comforting. I started feeling warm and tired, and yawned.

"you ready to sleep, little one?" Sans asked gently. The thought scared me.
"No! I mean... Can we talk a little more? I don't want to dream about anything again..."
"oh man, i'll be bone tired for the next week." he repeated his pun from earlier and I giggled. Sans stroke my hair once more. It made me realize I was still almost lying on him with his hands around me. I sat up quickly, my cheeks burning. Why am I blushing? Oh god, I hope my blush doesn't shine too.
"I-... I can go sleep on the couch if you're tired..." I tried to recover, "I'll just be on my phone for a while."
Sans sat up too and his brows were furrowed, "i wont let you sleep on the couch," he said, "and i will not leave you alone with chara being so close to control." As he mentioned Chara, I realized they were pretty quiet for their normal self.

"I think they got tired out by trying to take over before. My mind is silent." I smiled. At that moment, we both realized how close we were to each other. We sat there on the bed, legs still touching and noses breathing in each others faces. Sans' cheeks started glowing and I must have looked like a strawberry. But neither of us sobered up properly, so we didn't move away.
Sans looked at my crooked smile and smiled back. He slowly pulled up his hand and very gently cupped my cheek in his palm.
"Frisk..." he whispered and looked back into my eyes. I couldn't even move or say anything, so I just enjoyed his hand on my cheek. It was such a warm, calming feeling. And the way he whispered my name...
I got it at that moment. The way I could trust him and tell him anything, the way we made each other laugh. The way he was acting "weird" these last few days. It all made sense. Sans wasn't just a friend.

Our eyes locked and without consciously doing anything, we moved closer together. My mind raced.
Are we really going to kiss? Am I ready? Do I want it? Yes, yes I do, but... How does it feel, kissing... a skeleton? Never mind. The leftover alcohol in my body kicked in and I just went for it.

Just before closing my eyes, I saw a blue light from... Sans' eyes?

My arm shot up and I lost control over my body.

No!!! I tried to scream out as I saw my hand clutching Sans' spine and his terrified eyes.

Everything faded away.
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What?! A cliffhanger?! Oh! Oh no author! Give us the next chapter soon!
Also!
So much tension and nothing out of it! Oh author! How can you tease us so!

Well you got a long chapter so no crying is allowed!

Also in case you're confused sans' blue shiny eyes reminded frisk/chara of the genocide and they heard megalovania play in the distance (....dudu du du    du du duuu dududu....)

Also are you sure it was just a dream frisky?

You know what yall should do? Dring some water. NOW! Get that healthy liquid intake!

But ily bye