I Am Myself (Frans)

Chapter One

I was so out of it, that I could barely focus on going through the ruins. I called Toriel "mom" accidentally but she seemed happy about it. Makes sense. I haven't had such a mother figure in... well never I guess.
I didn't remember much of my childhood but from what I do remember, it was s big mess.

She'll hurt us just like our true parents. You should just kill her before she grows too close to your weak little heart... sounded in my head as soon as the ruins door closed behind me.
No. No! Nononono, they are not gone? I checked every muscle I could think of, to see if any of them are in their control.
Don't worry weakling, you are too good at locking me out. My voice is just too sweet for your barriers...

I didn't know if that made me feel any relief but my legs started taking me further from the door.
I met up with Sans again. I could see he didn't trust me a bit knowing that he remembers timelines. He had every right not to trust me. Damn, even I didn't trust myself.
Trash... commented Chara.
I devoured Papyrus' spaghetti without even realizing the horrendous taste. My head was spinning but at least Papy was happy.

If only they stopped whispering to me.
While Undyne was chasing me, Chara was spitting out so many slurs I could barely focus. They couldn't stop laughing every time I confronted Mettaton. At the time I walked into the lab I was going crazy from their continuous mumbling.
Oooh the lizard. Can we keep her as a pet? She's too weak to hurt even you. I'd love to tortu-
"Just STOP!" I screamed out loud because I couldn't listen to their voice anymore. Another wall was putt up in my head and I didn't hear Chara anymore. For now at least.
"S-sorry...?" Alphys was understandably confused.

Chara was silent even while meeting Sans for my judgement. Sans looked worried.
"to be honest kiddo, i am confused. and you look scared as heck. i know you didn't hurt anyone this time. why do you look so terrified of me? what happened to you last time?"
Tears started making their way down my cheeks.
"It wasn't me, I swear!" I cried out. He stepped closer to me, his hand moving up. I knew he didn't believe me, he would kill me and I didn't blame him. I closed my eyes, preparing for pain.
Instead, he pulled me in a hug.
"I trust you, Frisk." he said, seriously and reassuringly.
I cried all my fear into his jacket.

All went a little better until my fight with Asgore again. I felt desperate from not wanting to Fight him.
Need a hand? Chara resurfaced.
Not from you, demon.
But doesn't hurting him feel good?
No, it feels horrible!
But that was a lie. I didn't feel anything. I only felt horrible from not feeling anything while hurting Asgore.
I am myself, they are not controlling my body... I kept repeating to myself.

Finally it was over. Now to deal with Flowey. Then I must save poor little Asriel. Then we're out of here.

The thought of seeing the sun again filled me with DETERMINATION.

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Phew, I am writers blocking before i even started the story properly. Great!

Pro gamer tip:
Want to avoid upsetting content?
Dont read Chara's voice.
Again, thats in bold

Ok more sansy-pansy time on the surface i swear. Just had to set the story. You don't have to shout at me! (Literall silence bc i havent published a single chapter while writing this)

*crickets*

Well drink your water bye