I Am Myself (Frans)

Chapter Eight

All I saw was darkness. Nothing. I couldn't move.
Nonononono!! Not now! I gathered all my strength and Determination and pushed against Chara.
You idiot! Didn't you see?! He tried to kill you in your weakest moment!
No, he didn't! In case you haven't noticed, he tried to kiss me!
Dummie! He was only luring you into trusting him.
Sans would never do that!
Yes, he would. In fact he already did it before. Flashbacks of the Genocide rush in...
You are so naïve, little Frisk! But don't worry, I've got things in my hands now! AHAHAHAHA!!!!
No! Determination burned inside me and I let it all out, right at Chara. I could feel my body again. I couldn't move, but I felt it.
No! STOP! I'm trying to protect us!
Killing everyone is NOT the way to do it! I managed to loosen Chara's grip on Sans' spine.
It's the ONLY way! Chara fought their last fight with my Determination and then they let go finally.
I crawled away from Sans and hugged my knees to my chest, hiding my head in them. Sans tried to hug me but I pushed him away.
"No! Stay back!"
"Frisk, what..? what happened?" He sounded terrified.
"Chara-... y-your eyes... it reminded them of when we- you-..." I thought about it for a second, "they tried to protect us..." I way blown away by this. Sans put his hand on my knee.
"Sans, don't-"
"I trust you, Frisk." he said seriously. I started crying again.
"I'm s-so scared. I don't w-want to h-hurt anyone. I c-can't control Chara all t-the t-time!" I cried out.
"Shhh. You can. I've seen you overpower that brat a few times now. I can help you avoid anything that brings them out." He tried to calm me down while slowly inching closer to me. "but what do you mean they tried to protect you?"
"Chara has this twisted vision of the world. They are trying to kill every single person in this world, because if there is no one alive, no one can hurt us. I think it has to do with my childhood. Sans, I think I was abused!" I realized. Sans' eyes widened.
"nono, there must be some other explanation. kiddo, let's forget it all for now and just go to sleep." he said. We laid down next to each other and I tried to close my eyes. I saw my hand clutching Sans' spine again.
"Sans? I don't think I will be able to fall asleep just yet. Can we still talk for a bit?" I mumbled.
"anything for you" he said. I blushed a little.
"So... why did your eyes shine like this?" I asked.
"well... they do that when... when i feel strong emotions, like hatred, happiness... and you just kinda... make me happy? heh..." Sans had a hard time explaining himself. Does he really like me? I thought about that moment for a second.
"Oh yeah... we were about to..." my face got red. Sans' cheekbones were shining blue again. The tension with Chara completely blanked out the reason for all of it.
"Can you do it again?" I blurted out, trying to find something else to talk about. He looked at me, bewildered. God, I'm making this even more awkward... "I mean the eyes..." I added. Sans looked a bit disappointed but also a tiny bit relieved.
"sure thing, but... will you be okay?"
"Yeah, this time I'll be expecting it, don't worry."
"okay then..." Sans looked at me intensely and gently put his hand on the side of my head. A few moments later, the lights in his eyes gradually grew bigger and got bluer. It brought back bad memories and I shivered. But the longer I saw it, the more comfortable I grew, until...
"Man, you're like a night light," I giggled. Sans whispered something under his breath.
"What was that?" I asked.
"i just..." his face was glowing again," i... i love it when you giggle like that..." he confessed.
A warm feeling spread from my stomach to my whole body. I giggled again. "You're so adorable like this, Sans." I said while cuddling up to him a little bit, "Goodnight, my night light.." I yawned and saw the blue light shine even brighter before falling asleep.

"good night, sweets..."

The feeling of somebody being so close to me filled me with DETERMINATION.

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Ok this is just adorable.

My upload schedule might be a bit slow around christmas bc i celebrate too much and my mental age goes down to like 5 years. I am a child lol hi.

Ok see you drink eggnog and water and Marry kribmas christler greismas chesus born day and chanuuuka and kwanzas or whatever you celebrate and enjoy, just be happy.