I Am Myself (Frans)

Chapter Fifteen

I've seen my soul many times in the Underground, but never had a change to get a proper look at it.

It was glowing with a red so bright I haven't seen anything like it. It has never been lured out by someone with loving intentions without me having to move it to dodge attacks.

My mouth was open and I couldn't take my eyes of it untill I saw Sans' hand move closer.
His eyes were filled with fascination and love.

As he gently touched my soul with his fingers an intense feeling flowed from my head to toes making me exhale sharply.

Before I could identify what I actually felt, I saw a dark spot on my soul. It started spreading and my vision was going blurry. When it spread to my whole soul, I saw it was now as red as blood and had a dark glow around it.

And then I saw nothing anymore.

*Chara's POV*

"Now you've crossed all lines, trashbag! I'll kill you like the worm you are with the first thing I find!!" I was finally able to scream it out loud and guard the soul between us back in my body. I couldn't take it anymore. Letting him even look at OUR soul!

"I knew this would happen eventualy but it still surprises me how stupid can Frisk get!" I couldn't stop the words from flowing. Sans seemed to finally wake up from the surprise and understand what was happening.

"now, now,look who we have here..." he said and raised his hand. A dozen of shining bones started appearing around me, all pointing a sharp end at me. I giggled and a grimace appeared on Sans' face.
"listen, brat, you even try to make a sudden move and you'll have your chest impaled by all of these..."

"Oh Sansyyy... even if Frisk reset the timeline and somehow got control, they'd never trust you again. Not if you kill us for the second time..."

I reminded him of killing me for the first time he seemed to not like the memory. He had something going for Frisk but I still couldn't trust him.

"... if you let me finish, you'd find out that i actually want to talk and i'll put them away if you behave. i trust you as much as i belive you trust me, but we seem to have something in common, demon." He looked like a scolding parent. Ugh...

I raised my eyebrows.
"What could we possibly have in common?" I looked at him with disgust.

"i'm not happy to say that myself, don't worry. but after Frisk said one thing, I realized it's true. you want to protect this body. and i kinda feel like you're not as selfish as you make yourself seem with that. you don't just protect yourself, but mainly Frisk, do you?" He said.

I tsked at him but he was right.
"And if I do? What does it have to do with all of this?"

"so I was right." A few bones fell to the ground and disintegrated. "as much as you don't want to belive it, i love Frisk very much and now fully accept you as a part of them. I would never hurt Frisk intentionally, i'd rather hurt myself. which, unfortunatelly, means not hurting you also. which is why i will generously not kill you."

"Great! Makes it easier for me to kill you!" I laughed.

"stupid little brat! listen to me for a while! you don't want to hurt Frisk? then you shouldn't hurt me. how often do they lie? never in a serious matter. they said they love me! i know, i'm baffled myself but somehow i got their love and now if you hurt me, they will hurt more than you can imagine. do you know how much losing a loved one hurts? hurting them with your own hands even if you weren't in control?"

His last remarks almost made me spit in his face.

"You know nothing about me... you know nothing about Frisk! You'll never understand what we've been through! You think you're sooo clever but you don't know anything!" I let my rage out and was now screaming into his face. Sans seemed startled.

"i... sorry... i didn't know... Frisk never talks about your past..."
"And they have a damn good reason for it! There's nothing good to talk about! And they don't even remember the worst of it. That's my job..."

Sans almost looked like he felt sorry for me.

"Look, trashbag, let's make the goddamn deal you wanted to offer me. Yes, I will not hurt you as long as you don't hurt us. But remember - you crossed way too many lines today. All the way from touching our soul without an approval from both me and Frisk. You don't get it from me just yet. If you don't hurt them, you can touch Frisk in any way they let you. Go too far and you get me. And ewww, keep your bony hands away when I'm out. Frisk does love you for some crazy reason but I still hate the guts you don't have. God I wish you went for the goat Frisk calls mom."

All the bones disappeared during my speach and Sans even chuckled at the end.

"you might be less insufferable then i thought, demon." He said.

I was tired. He brought out too many memories and feelings. I was ready to give control back to Frisk but I wanted to leave on a different note.

"Don't get too cocky, trashbag. By the way, don't even fantasise about popping Frisk's cherry when you do it for the first time. Thank a random horny drunkard from a few years ago for that. Frisk knows it happened but doesn't remember anything from it. Still might get a bit triggered if you mention it so..." I gifted him a sickly sweet smile, waved and pulled Frisk out from the back of my mind to take over.

My mind closed to the world in something that could be called a sleep.

*Sans' POV*

that last thing left me speechless. they were... i couldn't even think about it. how could humans be so cruel?

"Sans...?" their small voice pulled me out of my thoughts. it was undoubtedly Frisk now.

i secretly called off the last bone i had ready behind chara's neck. just in case.

Frisk pulled themself away. "Are you okay? Did Chara... They let be back themself... What happened?"

i carefully sit closer to them on the bed and smiled.

"don't worry my sweet kid." i kissed their forehead and then pressed mine against it. they wanted to pull away but i wouldn't let them. "let's say i made a deal with the devil." i chuckled and tried to calm them down with a pun.

"Sans you know you can't trust Chara!" Frisk panicked.

"shhh, i know. we'll still be careful. but we had what seemed like an honest talk. now calm down. we were having a pretty good morning before they rudely interrupted, or? let's not ruin it now..." i said and leaned in for a kiss.

i knew this couldn't calm Frisk down, so for now, i tried to make them forget it by going back to where we left off before chara-... i guess before i rudely invaded Frisk's privacy by luring out their soul.

this morning will not end in panic, but in love.

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This chapter is just horrible omg i had such a hard time writing this.
1. Writers block had me dead inside
2. I got a new phone and writing on it is just such a pain for me now plz kill me
3. So much stuff is happening!! This year is running and i am still trying to catch up with it (not doing a good job)

There is so much panic and negativity outside. I want everyone to know that this will be okay. I know they talk about illnesses, wars, crisis and all of that, but YOU WILL BE OKAY!
If nobody, know that i love uuuu okay!

This time, I urge u to drink some tea, orange juice and eat fruits! You may be nerds, gamers and weirdos but be healthy, loved ones!

Dont forget that your author is at least a weirdo too.