Forever (Book 1) (Editing)

Chapter Twenty Seven

I was still smiling smugly when I pulled into my driveway. Nothing could take the smile off of my face. 'So Lady thinks about kissing me.' I thought to myself for the millionth time. 'I'll be her first real kiss.' I also thought to myself for the millionth time. I'd finally learnt something today about my mate. It wasn't the kind of thing that I’d previously wanted to know but I wasn’t disappointed in the least to learn she'd never shared a real kiss with anyone before. In fact I was euphoric with anticipation at just the thought of feeling her lips on my own and knowing I would be the first to give her a kiss with real meaning behind it. The urge to kiss her, really kiss her, was almost overpowering and I was hard pressed to resist the urge. The fight with myself to control that particular urge was hard when all I wanted was to make her toes curl in pleasure.

She lacked experience with this sort of thing and even an idiot could see how worried she was over how I’d react. I was only assuming but I was sure she thought in some way that I would make fun of her for her inexperience. She had no idea just how much pleasure it gave me to know that I, her mate, would be the first to give her a real kiss. I would be the first to show her the pleasure that came from such a simple act. She had no way of knowing that I was as inexperienced as she was in this aspect. Sure I had a girlfriend, one I still needed to break things off with, but kissing Sheila was done because it was expected not because I wanted to kiss her and it in no way ever changed from a peck to anything more. I’d never once tasted her lips and I’d never once wanted to. In fact when I stopped to think about it, she’d never complained or tried to push further with me either. She was happy to just run around saying we were together and that I was amazing in bed.

‘What a joke.’ I thought to myself as I climbed from my car and made my way to my house. The funniest part of the whole Sheila thing was that we were never even around each other. We both did our own thing and not a soul questioned why we weren’t all over each other all the time. This little fact was the only reason I’d yet to break it off with her. I didn’t want to go hunting her down through the school and we rarely saw each other if I didn’t. She hung around her own friends and I hung around mine. Only a few times a week would we spend any real time together and even that hadn’t happened since school had started. In fact I hadn’t seen her even once since Lady had come into the picture and I wasn’t sure how I should’ve felt about that.

I was guilty knowing that I had a girlfriend even while I was trying to woo my mate. If Lady were to find out about Sheila I knew without a doubt it would be yet another mistake on my part, one that would hurt her. As much as Lady was trying to deny it I knew she had the same feelings for me that I had for her and learning about Sheila would be a very bad thing. Especially when she knew how close I’d been to kissing her tonight. She knew that the fates had deemed us mates and she’d accepted it without question, but I knew she would rebel if she knew I had a girlfriend. She’d be angry and hurt and I didn’t know how I would make that up to her. So the only solution was to contact Sheila and break it off now before Lady could make that discovery.

As I entered my bedroom I reached my hand into my pocket and withdrew my cell phone quickly unlocking the screen and scrolling down to Sheila’s name. It was now or never. Before I could find a reason to stop myself I quickly hit the call button and put the phone up to my ear listening as it rang. She always left it till the last ring before her answering machine kicked in to pick it up and this time was no different. She seemed to get a kick out of making me wait anytime that I would call her.

“Hey baby.” Her cheery voice greeted me and I cringed with the guilt unexpectedly pooling into me.

“Uh… Hey Sheila.” I said back hiding the fact that something was wrong. I was trying to sound as normal as I possibly could. I wasn’t sure how I was going to work into this break up, I just knew it had to be done and I was trying to figure out the most painless way to accomplish this.