Her Protector ~NaLu~

~Chapter forty six~

Just for the record darling, not all positive change feels positive in the beginning.
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~Lucy's POV

I laughed as I pushed Gray over a table in the guild hall. He was being so idiotic and annoying that he was basically asking for it.

The table flipped over and Gray scowled at me, dusting off his boxers. Yes, his clothes have gone footsie again. It was night time so there aren't a lot of people left.

Gray and I spent the day together, going on jobs and hanging around. "Your clothes, Gray," I reminded him.

He gave me a lazy smile, not saying what he always does. He always says something along the line of 'oh shit' or 'how did that happen?'

Honestly, I gave up on trying to make his habit go away.

"Can I sleep at your house? Mine isn't ready yet."

So my house burned down a while ago, and just a few days ago the repairing began. We have a long way to go. I tried making myself useful, but the workers I hired could do it themselves.

I slept in Natsu and Happy's house the whole time, but Happy sleeps with Carla lately so it became a little lonely.

He nodded, not questioning me about it. And that's what I like about him.

He wasn't asking me why Natsu has been gone. He just knew something was wrong and we had a break.

Gray and I arrived a while later in his house. Like almost every boy's room, it was messy. But he has a guest room that is clean, luckily.

I'm really happy with the bond I have with Gray.

Now don't get me wrong, I like our bond as siblings not by blood. Natsu is still my first and last thought every day.

It has been two months since I last spoke to him, and the aching feeling is really hard to deny.

I miss him so damn much.

I went to the guest room and changed into my PJ. It's not the first time I will be sleeping here. My PJ is made out of cotton, it's black with red flames on it.

Yes, I'm that pathetic I need to have something that is totally mine but reminds me of Natsu.

I appeared in his kitchen again. For one person living here, Gray has a pretty big house. He was cooking something, a feature I didn't see very often.

I sat around the counter, playing with my hands.

I have been training like I promised. I worked out in all of my free time, wanting to prove Natsu that I'm just as strong as he thinks I am. And I made such progress.

But he just isn't there to see it.

I wonder if he's made progress too. You can do so much in three months. I miss his smile, his laugh, his stupid, irritating habits. I just miss him.

I've been thinking about all kind of scenarios, the worst is him breaking up with me. But he said he loved me, so I'm holding unto that tiny bit of information. It's been long, and it pains me to say it, but I don't know anymore what it was like to be with him.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, but I don't think that's entirely true. I need something from him to remind me once again why I fell for him.