Excess EXes

14

"ikaw lang"

"ikaw lang"

"ikaw lang"

Pauulit ulit na pinapa-alala ni anikka sa sarili niya ang mga sinabi ni brent.

"Maaga ka daw uuwi today?" Tito bert asked anikka, which snapped her out of her trance, tumango si anikka.

"Opo, may aayusin kami ni brent." Anikka said, tumango si tito bert sakanya at ngumiti.

"kinakabahan ka?" Juan asked, anikka looked at him before continuing to fix her things.

"Oo, sino ba namang hindi?" Anikka asked juan.

"whatever the outcome is, please be strong anikka." Juan pleaded, anikka nodded and hugged juan.

"I'll update you." Sabi ni anikka, juan nodded kissing the top of anikka's head.

"Ingat ka." Javi called out, anikka waved her hand.

Love, san ka na?

She texted brent, but he wasn't answering. Hindi naman ito ikinabahala ni anikka, brent never responds if he's driving.

"Basta magkasama tayo sa dulo" anikka repeated, ipagalalaban niya si brent no matter what the outcome of the paternity test today.

She sighed as she glanced at her clock, almost 20 minutes na, na late si brent.

"anikka!" lumingon si anikka and she saw ricci, ricci smiled.

"tara na?" Ricci asked, anikka smiled, but it didn't reach her eyes.

"si brent?" Anikka asked, strapping her seatbelt on.

"malapit siya kay bets eh." ricci responded, looking at the road.

"kinakabahan ka?" Anikka asked ricci, nagkibit balikat lamang si ricci.

"kung anak ko naman yun, okay lang." Ricci said biting his lip, anikka nodded.

"pero paano kapag anak ni brent yon?" anikka asked ricci, the light turned red kaya tumingin sakanya si ricci.

"paano nga kapag anak ni brent yon?" ricci asked her back, anikka smiled.

"edi anak niya." Anikka said, but inside, she wanted to cry. Iiyak nalang siya kasi ano nga bang magagawa niya? Wala naman siyang magagawa kung anak ni brent yun.

"sige, pag pray mo nalang na mas magaling sperm ko kesa sa sperm ni brent." Ricci joked and anikka smiled, she really appreciates ricci right now.

"Anikka." Ricci called, anikka looked at ricci, his focus was on the road.

"sana anak ko nalang yun." ricci smiled "para hindi ka na umiyak." dagdag pa ni ricci.

"i'm so scared cci." anikka admitted, she was playing with her fingers.

"Why?" Tanong ni ricci, nagkibit balikat si anikka.

"kasi paano ko papantayan si betina kung anak ni brent yun?" anikka took a deep breath "paano na diba? nanay si betina, tatay si brent, ano ako nun? tita? saan ako lulugar pag lumabas yung baby? Titira ba si betina sa condo? saan ako? ano yung papel ko?"

"mahal ka ni brent" ricci assured anikka, anikka chuckled.

"We both know na hindi sapat yung mahal ka lang." Anikka said, ricci glanced at her.

The rest of the ride was quiet, walang masabi si ricci to console anikka, and anikka was praying hard. For her sanity, and whatever the outcome was, she hopes it'll make their life better.

"cci" betina called out, Brent's hand on top of her non existent bump. Nakita ni anikka ang pagliwanag ng mga mata ni brent habang hawak niya ang tiyan ni betina.

"hi love." Brent said, leaving betina for a moment, betina smiled at anikka, walang bakas ng hiya sa kanyang mga mata.

"hello." anikka answered, letting brent kiss her cheek.

Pilit na ngumiti si anikka habang nagtatanong si ricci sa doctor, anikka held her bag tightly. Para bang naninikip ang kanyang dibdib, hindi niya alam kung anong mangyayari paglabas nila sa hospital na ito.

"Hanggang sa dulo." She whispered, napatingin si betina sakanya, while brent was so focused on the sonogram.

"may sinasabi ka ba?" Betina asked anikka, umiling si anikka, betina just smiled and talked to brent.

"Natatakot ako cci." Anikka admitted while they were getting samples from brent and betina was in the comfort room.

"Sabi naman ni brent hanggang sa dulo diba?" Ricci reminded, ngumiti si anikka, nakatitig lang siya sa kwarto kung nasaan si brent, taking a deep breath, she looked at betina who came out of the comfort room.

"paano kung ito na yung dulo?" and she wiped the tears that fell, looking up to prevent more from falling.