[ [ Listen to the song while reading this chapter, it reflects both of their emotions well x ]]
Clitter-clatter of the dishes, opening and closing of cabinets and warm steam that was taehyung's apartment early in the morning. Today jisoo had woken up earlier than usual despite her efforts to wind up for a couple more hours. She just couldn't.
After all these years, her prayers were finally answered. A subtle smile lingered on her lips, knowing that these were her last few hours in that house. The house that had made her feel free despite being in chains. The house that had given her more than she had anticipated and the man living in it.. Her heart fluttered inside her chest.
This was the last time she'd ever see him again. She sighed. Her feelings were still mixed. The hatred that she bore for him was replaced with empathy. She had tons of bad memories,the nightmares that she didn't know would ever let her escape but life also managed to give her some warm smiles, people like chan-ri and.. Taehyung.. She couldn't even dream about thinking of him as a good memory but he was.. He had become one, probably one of the good one's that came with butterflies that she felt when he called her by her name for the first time. When he kissed her palm. He had become a good one. Last night when she hugged him and he pulled her closer to him. She had never felt whatever he made her feel everytime he'd touch her like that. Hell, she didn't know if she'd ever feel it again once she left. Or anyone else would ever make her feel like that because unfortunately he wasn't the only guy who had held her hand, pulled her closer to them, kissed her but none of them did it like Taehyung, none of them touched her with so much care, hesitation and love? Nobody even came close.
"you're up so early? "
Jisoo almost dropped the kettle in her hands. "jeez major you scared me. " she muttered as she turned around. Her eyes dramatically widened as she laid them onto his dewy face that was a bit swollen from sleep. His dishevelled bangs stuck to his forehead and his eyes that were still heavy from sleep. She had never seen him with such observant eyes before.
" I'm sorry didn't mean to scare you. " he spoke. A frowsy expression on his face.
"it's okay. I was just making breakfast for you. I guess I just started a bit earlier. " she spoke as she chewed on the insides of her cheek.
Taehyung immediately looked at her in denial. "why are you doing that? You know you don't have to anymore. Please don't. " he told her but his voice wasn't higher than a whisper.
"but" she stopped. She didn't know how to say that she had started to like making meals for him. She had started to like feeding him.
" I'd ppreciate it. " he spoke. " the vehicle is ready whenever you want to leave. " he added and a sudden lump formed in his throat.
Jisoo simply nodded as Taehyung began to walk away.
"ah m-major?" jisoo called.
"yes? " he asked as he turned around and look at her petite frame. How was she so perfect?
"can I also take my best friend from the s-station?" her eyes glittered with tears appearing in them.
"jisoo," he spoke this time his hand reached to stroke her cheek. Her skin was feverish under his touch. "The stations are already evacuated. She might have left. There's nobody there now. " he spoke as his hand laid on her shoulder now.
He wanted to hold her close and never let her go. He wanted to tell her that it's the first time since his parents died, he felt afraid to loose another human being. His world was dark and gloomy again.
"once you reach back to Korea, you can ask any local soilder for the lists. You can know about her. " he assured her softly.
"okay. " she replied short. And with a dim smile Taehyung reached for the door to leave. He was scared. He was scared to witness her leave. He didn't know how be got this attached to her.
Ten years of training, and he still could feel emotions like this?
"m-major? "she called out his name again.
"jisoo, it's gonna be okay. I promise you." he spoke. Realising that this was the first ever promise he had made to her in all this time. His first promise. Yet he didn't even know if he was going to be okay.
"I know. " she spoke. The confidence in her voice was envious. "it's just.. " she took a pause and moved closer to him. So close that he had to look down to look at her.
She reached for his hand and cupped it between her small ones. Then she looked at him and brought his hand closer to her chest. Taehyung only watched her in silence as she kissed the back of his hand softly.
"thank you." she whispered to him. He looked at her blankly, tears brimmed both of their eyes.
So much he wanted to say yet the only words that his tongue allowed him to say were, "goodbye, jisoo."
