"what are you doing here? " both of them shuddered on taehyung's voice. Specially jisoo who had just barely managed to be happy.
"taehyung.. Tae" Lisa spoke as she stepped in and stood right in front of him. Jisoo only stood at a distance witnessing whatever was happening in front of her.
"I asked what are you doing here?" he repeated again.
"I came here to apologize to you. Baby I'm sorry please come home with me. I need you. Our son needs you. " she pleaded. And sudden guilt overpowered jisoo.
"we talked about this. We talked about it all. " he spoke in between a stubborn laugh. " I don't know what is this new way you're adopting. "he looked at lisa blankly. He was confused. Everything was over between them, at least he made it clear to her. And he knew she was upto something but again he was confused. He couldn't guess anything. He didn't know what to expect.
"Cmon babe, it was just a little fight. " she reached for his hand,she was following her own script when she turned around and met jisoo's eyes. She burnt in rage as she took a deep breath, to calm herself, "please tell him that no relationship is perfect, couples fight and all but that doesn't mean you leave home. Am I not right? "Lisa intently involved jisoo into it.
"am I not? "she asked in a persuasive tone again.
"y-you a-are. " jisoo responded. She was overpowered by her own guilt. She slept with him even when she knew he was married. She knew he had a child. A family.
Your daughter was a prostitute.
The bitter words of her step mother floated right in front of her. Isn't that what they do? Sleep with men. She was caught up in her own trance.
Love was being mixed up with resentment, guilt and frustration.
"see, your friend thinks the same." Lisa wiped a tear from her cheek as she fixed her gaze on taehyung again.
" I'll be waiting for you. Our son would be waiting for you. " she spoke dramatically and Taehyung looked at her in disbelief, "I hope you won't disappoint us. "
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No words spoken. No questions asked. She stood against the wall lifeless. One word and she would fall on her knees.
"jisoo listen to -" he reached for her.
"please don't come closer. " she whispered, her head faced the ground.
"are you mad at me? "he asked. Eyes fixed on her, jaw clenched.
"Should I be? "she responded, her vision was blurred with the tears that had now appeared in her eyes, once Lisa was finally gone.
"I can explain. What she said wasn't how it is. Things have changed. "he was anxious now, looking at her. He feared losing her.. Again..
"that's your wife nothing changes that. " she managed to look up, to look into his dark eyes.
She trembled, "I can't take this guilt no more. God I want to be free. I want to kill myself." she broke into weak sobs again.
"don't. Don't you dare say that. I'll do whatever you say. I promise. " he immediately wrapped his arms around her. "then please leave. " she spoke and moved back from his embrace. "go back to your family. Don't ruin it for what's already been ruined. "she looked anywhere but at him.
"no-no jisoo I-"
"I want this. " she cut him off, pretending to stand firm on her ground but she was barely holding on.
He let out a deep sigh, "then look me in the eyes and say that you don't love me. That you don't want this? " he was adamant.
She felt a shiver down her spine, she could never.. "why don't you understand we are not destined to be together. "
"that's bullshit. " he spat. He was hurt.
"look at me. "she asked him and he ignored her at first but then she held his hand making blood pound in his head. "please?" she requested and this time he obeyed.
The way he looked at her like if he didn't do anything to save this.. She would just let it slip like that. She'd leave whatever they have. And it just made him hopeless. She'd just leave like that without even fighting? Without even trying? Without even knowing?
"the memories we've made are enough for me to live my remaining life." her lips trembled but she continued, "what's important is that you go back to your family and save your home. Please. "she pleaded.
He was disappointed, so disappointed. "see you're not even hesitating and I'm scared to death. " the sharp ache, the hurt that he felt in his heart was now spreading in his body.
She felt like she was stabbed in her heart by his words, but she did what she had to do.
"you promised me that you'll do whatever I want. " she swallowed a lump that had formed in her throat. Just don't cry.. Not now. She reminded herself.
He looked at her in dismay
"fine. If that's what you want." his voice shook and he jerked his hand away from hers.
"but know that if you ever feel like blaming fate again just remember what you did to us. " tears shone in his eyes as he grabbed his jacket and left slamming the door behind him.
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She immediately fell onto the floor and curled into a ball. She screamed. She cried out loud. She hated herself. She hated herself for what she did but she also knew that Lisa could offer him much more than she could ever. She just had a broken soul and it wouldn't take him long enough to get bored with it. He had a wife. A son. A family. Someday or another he would be so busy in that life that he wouldn't even remember someone so insecure, so problematic like her.
Most importantly he'd be Happy.
She laid there on the cold hard floor for hours. Thinking, crying, regretting. That day she herself gave everything up.
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He didn't go home. He had no home to go back to. He drank. He stayed out on the streets, under the stars. He was frustrated, he was angry. He was hopeless. She made him hopeless. She made him give up when he didn't want to. She drove him away. He felt like going back and hold her in his strong arms and tell her.. Tell her that he expected more. Tell her she disappointed him. Tell her how mad he was at her but he knew if he ever go back he would end up making love with her. He would end up holding her and never wanting to let her go.
Only if he could make all her doubts disappear, only if she could see through him. Only if she loved him like he did. He ran his hand through his hair. Despite whatever he wanted he knew he couldn't go back. He knew she gave him a promise to keep. He knew her life was more important than his feelings. That night he just drank the pain away.
