9:00 pm
The night sky was clear but the air was so cold. She shivered as she tucked her hands inside the pockets of her long coat.
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He had been waiting for her since three hours. He didn't know what time she'd be there but he only prayed that she makes it. For her to show up. And he immediately felt relieved when he saw a feminine figure at a distance, coming towards him.
His heart vibrated in his chest, as she stood a few inches away from him, " hey. " she said to him.
'I'm glad you made it. " he whispered to her.
" now what? " she asked as a subtle smile lingered on her lips. She was a mixture of calm and nervousness at once.
"we talk? "he responded rubbing the back of his neck. Clearly they both felt a bit awkward. 5 years felt like a thousand.
"hmm" she smiled. "so? You're married Huh? " she looked at him. His perfect features looked so beautiful under the moonlight. Her gaze was steady on him as she felt a kind of ache she never did before, waiting for his answer.
Taehyung let out a deep breath that he didn't know he was holding in, "I am. " he replied and her heart flinched. "but we're not here to talk about me. Jisoo I want to know what's going on in your life. " he stared at her face, then into her eyes.
She felt a tremor run down her spine, a frozen jolt she felt from his intense stare and at that moment she knew she couldn't lie to him anymore,
"what If I told you I'm dissapointed? "her voice shook, but she didn't blink.
His jaw tightened, "I'd ask what happened? "
Her stomach coiled, "major.. "she called him like she did everytime but this time her voice didn't sound as hopeful as it did before.
"nothing's the same. I'm embarrassed in front of you. "her stubborn tears started to run down her cheek as she moved her face away from him. She hated being this weak in front of him.
"hey .." he whispered as he reached for her hand. His touch felt warm. His touch felt like home on her feverish skin. "is there anything I'm not aware of? Nothing can make me think otherwise of you. " he wiped her tears gently with his thumb.
"they said I worked for them for money. " she spoke in between the sobs. "please tell me, is this what a 14 year old does for a living? " she was more than vulnerable and he was angry and furious. His eyes sparkled with tears in them and his touch was soft on her as he immediately wrapped his arms around her. He felt her pain as she broke into his embrace. Her face was buried in his chest and the warmth of his body slowly imbued into hers.
"I am so sorry." he held her tightly as he landed a kiss on the top of her head. He couldn't keep him self from crying. He felt like murdering everyone and anyone who ever hurt her.
"what they think is not your problem. It should never be your problem." he spoke and for a moment they stayed like that. Quiet and wrapped up in eachother's arms. It was better this way. No questions, no answers. They knew very well, that somewhere deep inside, their hearts have been conquered by eachother.
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"you've been at Mr. Lau's place last night? You came home so late." asked Lisa as she got dressed up.
"no, went to meet an old friend. "
She immediately looked at him in confusion, "old friend? In Korea? "
"what? Can't it be? "
"no, I was just wondering.. We just moved a couple of years ago. "
"she is someone I've known since more than five years. " he replied clearly. Lisa looked at him, she stopped whatever she was doing and came closer to him, "she? "
"yes. " he replied short, looking into her eyes. "is Jay ready?we're getting late for school. " he said and walked away.
"he is. " she responded and by this time he had left already.
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" I want to meet her. " she spat.
Taehyung knitted his brows together, "who? " he asked, on their way back from dropping their son to school as it was his first day of kindergarten.
"y-your friend." She stuttered and he gave her a confused look.
"And why do you want to?" He had a blank expressionon his face.
"please don't say no " she pleaded. Jealousy flushed in her eyes.
Taehyung thought for a moment as his mouth curved, "tae please."
"Okay tomorrow, she'll be there at Mr. Lau's shop I'll take you to meet her. " he replied.
"Great!" she smiled.
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"so, I've known some things about you from taehyung. " Mr. Lau told jisoo.
"I hope they aren't as bad. "she replied.
"you're one strong girl. "he laid his hand on hers. "don't lose hope , life can do wonders. " he smiled at her.
"I hope so." her voice wasn't higher than a weak whisper.
"ah jisoo? "she immediately turned back only to see Taehyung with his wife. Her heart dropped.
Lisa stared at both of them as they were having a conversation. She noticed the way he looked at her. He had never looked at her that way. She craved for what he was giving her through his eyes without it being asked by her. She was jealous. She was hurt.
"come here. " taehyung waved at her and she walked towards them.
"jisoo, she is Lisa. " he stuttered.
"his wife. "Lisa spat and smiled as she observed jisoo's reaction. Jisoo gave her a dim smile. That's all she could do.
"I'll be right back. " Taehyung left to have a talk with Mr. Lau.
"so how are you? " asked jisoo.
"I noticed the way he looked at you. "
"what? "asked jisoo in confusion.
"just know we have a son. " she almost gave her a scathed look and jisoo felt a pang inside her stomach.
"I'm sorry but what are you trying to say to me? "she asked.
"stay away from us." spat Lisa.
"im sorry? " asked jisoo.
"it's a request. Bye. " she replied and jisoo fell into silence. She didn't know what to say to her. She had no words as she only watched her leave.
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Jisoo thought about it alot. She did love taehyung, she realized she had been in love with him from very long and everytime he looked at her, it felt like he could see more than what most people did. But never even for once she had a thought of making him hers. It just never crossed her mind. Maybe because she loved selflessly. Maybe she didn't want anything in return for her love. She adored and admired him but she also wanted him to be happy. It hurt her seeing him with someone else but she was happy for him. Even if she was hurt she didn't want to claim him.. She couldn't.
Or maybe it was denial, denial of her feelings. Maybe she was too scared to accept that she couldn't live without someone. She'd crave for him until her last breath. She'd be madly in love with him but accepting it was maybe too much because she knew he deserved better. She knew he deserved Lisa and their son.
She burried her face in the pillow and cried, cried out loud. She let it all out until her eyes became too dry to cry anymore.
She knew she was merely just living without him.
